A Season of JOY

Well, this has been quite an interesting “season” as we say in church talk. Hah.
The past couple months have been really strange emotionally, and it’s all really taken me aback. See the truth is, I have just been SAD lately. I was waking up not wanting to see a single soul, and not feeling worthy or able to take on anyone’s drama or problems. I realize the only “fixer” of these problems is the Lord, so that takes a lot of stress off of me, but at the same time I like to think of myself as a pretty good “fixer” too, and that takes me on an emotional rollercoaster ride if I let it get away from me.

I cried a lot, I felt indescribably but also unreasonably lonely, and all the things that normally make me happy didn’t do anything for me at all.
I wracked my brain trying to figure out why this was all happening, and in the process went to the Lord a LOT, and prayed almost every waking moment. I spent so much time in the Bible, because something in the back of my mind (oh yeah, hi, holy spirit) was sure (and rightly so) that God’s words were going to be the only comfort I could find.

I am discovering that the whole season was a time to find comfort in the Lord….it was time to get my heart wrecked and refined by fire, and time to search deeper than I had ever before inside my soul and see what I was really living for.
The Lord did some serious cleansing of my heart, and changing it to want GOOD, HOLY things. I am literally just in awe, no words to describe grateful. This is what I have been praying for for so long, and it’s finally starting to take place in my life.
I read a book about King David and spent a lot of time thinking about the reason for “suffering”…for these times when it seems like problems and bad news just keep piling up.
Sometimes God does things to break us, to test our faith, and I think He really does it to a chosen few. I think the amount of people who go through hardship and strife and use that time to find their weaknesses and make themselves stronger is very small, actually.
I am the first to tell you that normally, as far as hard times go, I suffer through the darkness, feel sorry for myself, and once I get back into the light I just try to forget about how badly I felt. Honest truth.
But what I’m learning is that I need to be encouraged that God is intentionally working out my kinks and sanding off the rough edges. It means that there’s something worth saving underneath all of this, and God thinks it’s worth His time to fix me up. There are small and big things that the Lord can use me for, all equally important, but I need to be in the right place to accomplish His tasks with the right attitude and motives.

When in crisis, sadness, distress, etc….Going to the Lord and asking for His opinion and direction and WAITING for answers is infinitely more reliable and brings more peace than sharing my struggles and asking for solutions from people. Which is not to say I’ve not had amazing encouragement…because people are actually really awesome and bring a lot of joy to my life.
But I tend to go to everyone looking for answers to my problems when trustworthy guidance from someone who knows every corner of my heart would be much more trustworthy.

The season ended well. Last Sunday I felt the Lord clearly saying that I was released from that time, that I was no longer going to feel sorry for myself or play the victim, but that I was going to choose JOY every day when I woke up. Instead of waking up thinking about all my troubles, I was going to wake up thinking about and thanking God for all the blessings in my life, and I was going to get excited about all the possibilities of a new day and what God could do with it.

So, THANK YOU so much if you’ve been praying for me during this time without knowing what was going on…I would like to be the perfect missionary and christian, and have a brave face on all of the time, but the truth is that all of us are always growing, and there’s always something the Lord can change to help better ourselves and help His work be done on a greater level.

I’m excited about this new season of JOY. It’s been going so well so far! The drama is never ending here, and it’s worse since I’m by myself until Katlyn gets back from the States, but nothing is changing my joy.
Ugh, joy is just so deep. I love it. It’s a state of peace and trust that no matter what happens, there’s blessings at every turn and so many possibilities of literally anything and everything wonderful happening.
It’s sunshine and still waters and new hope.

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VERY IMPORTANT:
I will be coming home to the States from June 16th – July 17th. I NEED to do some major fundraising for Finding Hope in that time, but I need your help!
I am looking for churches, organizations, clubs, schools, small groups, etc. that are interested in supporting Finding Hope here in Honduras.
We would like to open up the first floor of our Women’s and Children’s Center by the end of the year, but we can’t do that without having monthly supporters to cover our costs, which will be about $1600 monthly.
I can go anywhere in Michigan to speak about our mission and what we do here, I just really need contacts!
Would you speak to the leaders of your church, group, school, etc. and ask if they would be interested in hearing my presentation?

I also would like to do several fundraisers like a night at a restaurant, garage sale, etc….whatever you can think of, any ideas you might have or you’d like to head up, please let me know!
It’s so difficult to fundraise from Honduras, and I want to be somewhat prepared before I get home, but I will definitely need some help.
Thanks for your consideration!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

The Happenings of August/September

I hope all of you are enjoying your Pumpkin Spice Lattes and Cider Mill visits….because FALL IS HERE!!
My favorite season of the year and I am spending it in a MUCH different way than I would in the States.

The first difference is the weather. Instead of cool breezes, crunchy leaves, sweet smells in the air, cozy sweaters, and awesome boots…I am in my rain jacket, sloshing through puddles of mud everyday. It’s FULL ON RAINY SEASON!!!!
Instead of ending my days with a bonfire and s’mores, I get to see the most beautiful sunsets of rainbows and every color you could imagine, with the stars coming up over the volcano.
Instead of treating myself to a breakfast of donuts and cider, I am filling my belly with gallo pinto, fried cheese, enchiladas, pupusas, and tajadas.
Instead of getting ready to sell a kajillion clothes for early Christmas shoppers, I am working at a job where my my responsibilities are to love people, teach them how to sing, and pray and visit the sick and poor in spirit.

I know I’ve said this a million times, but I TRULY, ABSOLUTELY love my life. Jesus is constantly reminding me of how beautiful and different it is and what a GOOD decision it was to move here to Candelaria, Nicaragua. My spirit soars here and I breathe so deeply and easily for how simple and uncomplicated life is when I trust it all to God.

I have been in a season of growing.
Like always.
What I need prayer for is that I would grab these times of growing full on and wouldn’t dodge them and run away from change.
Also, if you would just pray for some dreams I have in my heart right now. I’m not patient and I would just love for all of them to come true but I know God’s timing is perfect and there’s a reason I’m still waiting.
Pray that someone would come on full-time that would really be awesome for pouring into me and someone that I could do the same for.
Aaaand….take a look at these pictures and pray for whatever God puts on your heart! I would love for you to share with me what God is speaking to you about and if you have any special thoughts and prayers for my ministry.

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I LOVE SANTA MATILDE.
Just in case you’ve never read any of my blogs….
I love it.
I love the people and community and church and their visions and dreams and purposes.
I love Yerling, who’s in this picture with me.
She is turning 15 years old on September 21st and we are throwing a big Quinceañera for her!
Pray for her as she is going through this transition of girl to woman and is learning responsibility and staying true to the person God made her to be.

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I had the absolute privilege and pleasure of having my Dad come to visit me for 2 weeks from September 1st-14th. I got to show him around and introduce him to all my Nica friends and family. He loved his time and fit right in, right away. We climbed Cerro Negro together and volcano boarded down, which is something I’ve never done here, in all the time I’ve been in Nicaragua. It was a sweet visit, and I loved the time I had with him!

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September 15th was Central American Indepence Day! September 14th they celebrate with huge parades and bands and presentations. All the schools in our area gathered in the big Flor de Caña Baseball Stadium to celebrate all morning and afternoon long. Each school has a band, which is more like a drum line, and dancers, and students that are the best in their classes and grades. They all get 8 minutes to do their presentation that they’ve been practicing for weeks. Seriously, if i hear a drum line one more time…I will probably go crazy. They have been the soundtrack of my August and September. Anyway, I got permission to go onto the field to take pictures of our sponsored kids that were in the marches. I am so proud of them and their accomplishments!
September 13th was the march for the Preschools in our area. Seeing all my precious Sunday School kids was so much fun. They struggled to stay in a straight line, but were SO adorable in their little outfits. 
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My precious Allan David is on the road to recovery! Thanks to your prayers, he had surgery on September 16th to remove the cyst that was eating away at his little bitty leg. The doctor gave us an affordable price, and we were able to get it done right away. He’s at home resting now with his family and is getting seen by our doctor at the Clinic to make sure everything heals properly. Pray for him as he is in a little pain and also for the biopsy that will be done to make sure what he had wasn’t malignant.

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I have loved having the opportunity lately to go to Santa Matilde on Thursdays and help with homework and random Sponsorship work. I fall in love with this village a little more every time I come and I enjoy getting to know the community in different ways. It’s a good time too to spend with Lisa and Cadence and hear about the kids and information about their school life.

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I was so excited that Gema has started to sing with me in church! She was super nervous at first, and still hesitant to take on the full commitment of worship team, but she’s off to a great start. Her voice is sweet and she sings with a heart fully devoted to God and only worshipping him.

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The traditional jumping on the top of the volcano picture. You have to take one, you just do.

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I have been so blessed lately to be getting closer to this lovely lady. Teresa is part of the worship team and has only recently begun to trust me to pray for other areas of her life. I feel lucky that we are growing our friendship and she is letting me into personal things going on with her. We got to celebrate her birthday with a party since her sponsor were with us for a week. They truly love her and are devoted to making sure she is taken care of and growing spiritually.

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I love life with these two cuties. Allan David and Britney make my heart full of joy. I love getting to be a child with them.
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We have a World Race team with us right now! Each and every one of them have beautiful hearts and spirits and fit right into our ministry here at New Song. Mikkia has started to sing with me for our Saturday staff worship times and I love having her with us. Her voice is wonderful but her spirit for worship is what makes the music come alive.
Also, Michael Medlin and his family have recently made the move to come live and work full time with us. He plays guitar and has also started to help out with the worship. It’s a blessing to have more instruments involved!1272319_10152267235141164_1336373334_o 1273401_10152266542701164_1861200823_o IMG-20130907-00047-2And last but not least, I CAN GET MAIL HERE!!! So please, PLEASE, PLEEEEEASE send me cards and notes and pictures and whatever else you’d like to bless me with that isn’t expensive or valuable.
My address is:

Haille Krieg
Reparto: Las Palmeras
Casa 19
Chichigalpa, Chinandega
Nicaragua

How is your fall going? What is your favorite season and how to you like to spend your time enjoying it?

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.

Making the most out of…everything?

I figured…since being home I’ve talked a lot about my spiritual life.

And…..how you can support me on my next trip and all that junk 😉

Some people have asked me how I’ve been since I’ve been home. They want to know what life’s like and how different it is.

Well I can tell you right off the bat:

  • It is extremely socially awkward to walk around with a sort of mullet here. I’ve learned to kind of pull the long part back into a pony-tail, braid my bangs, and hope for the best.
  • Apparently, I’m pretty tan. Apparently, Americans never believe your tan’s real.
  • It’s normal to drop a couple hundred bucks at your local Gap. On clothes. On pieces of fabric. On things to add to your busting-at-the-seams closet.
  • PEOPLE ARE NOT AS OPENLY FRIENDLY
  • I have to use 2 blankets because of a little luxury we like to call A/C.
  • Public transportation is NOT the same. Obviously, but really. Why is there so much room in the bus?
  • Sometimes, I sit around and think.
  • Then I beat myself up for not being productive….back into that cycle again.
  • Then I realize, quiet time, time spent doing nothing is good sometimes. Central American time will teach you that valuable lesson.
  • Google Translate is a hit or miss. General rule: Try to translate it by yourself FIRST…and then let Google have a go. Most times, you end up understanding it better with your limited Spanish vocabulary than with some fancy, professional, “correct” online translator.
  • I miss abundant physical touch and affection.
  • American TV is boring. Spanish soap operas are far more dramatic and amusing.
  • WHERE ARE THE LITTLE MANGOES
  • I am rich.
  • God is good.
  • He is everywhere.
  • He is everything I need, at every time of day and life.

You know, it’s been HARD. I miss things like community, the craziness of never knowing what you’re going to do, the freedom, the abandon, the tangible God moments.

When I can home, I was bitter. I was so sad and heart-sick. I want to go out the next day and get back to what I had been doing. I kept thinking, “I have nothing. I have to make the most out of this unfortunate situation. I don’t want to. Where did my wonderful life go?”.

It’s amazing how loving people are though. You treat them like absolute garbage because you’re so confused about life now and they still try to make you happy. They don’t really understand what you’re going through but it doesn’t matter. But because you are important to them,and you matter, so they keep trying.

Asi que, my family is the greatest thing since sliced bread.
Actually, you know what, I really prefer un-sliced bread. There’s nothing like a freshly ripped off of chunk of bread.
OK.

Obviously the point is, I just appreciate them. A whole flippin’ lot.

And, I’m STILL learning about seasons. Mostly about how sometimes you need to adapt. Also, how your faith should not be built on experiences.

It was very easy for me to feel close to God in Nicaragua. Basically everything I was doing involved Him in some way or another, and being in a team, we were constantly seeking His help and provision. I had time every morning to get up and do my devotions…in the quiet morning hours…surrounded by the beauty of nature…interrupted by some very precious women named Antonia & Estella wishing me a good morning…listen to worship music in a hammock…
You get the picture.

My 4 months was filled with crazy moments, instances where God was very visibly at work. Sometimes it was within our team, sometimes at our work areas, sometimes in the little villages, and a lot of times in my own heart.

My mind was blown…it was overcome with love…I experienced life like never before.

And now, I’m trying to play the comparing game. That’s why I say I’m trying not to base my faith off my experiences. If I think one of those amazing times was the peak of what God can do, if I’m always looking for that same spiritual high, I am going to be sincerely disappointed.

God’s like, “Um, Haille, I’m kind of way more vast and incredible and complex than your little human brain can comprehend. It’s OK that you don’t get it, but trust me on this one. Let me work in my ways, and you’re going to find peace, rest, love…JOY. I will continue to amaze you if you let me!” 

So being home is a lot about adapting to the different things are going on here. I’m going to have to work harder to make my heart focused on Jesus, it’s going to need to be a more intentional thing.
And God is still going to be slowing shaping me into the woman He’s created me to be, perhaps in a more day-to-day “I will provide” kind of way.

But really. I have everything I could ever want. Absolutely everything. Just so you know this is credible stuff…
Philippians 4:19 (NLT) says, “And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.”

                                                                           

If you are the praying kind….I would be super grateful if you could pray for a garage sale I have coming up. Yes, I really am asking for prayer about a garage sale. It’s going to be a fund-raiser for my trip to Nicaragua, and I’m really hoping to raise a bit of money from it. So…please pray it goes well and I meet some people and have great conversations through all of it!

Right now I’m at about $400 towards the $10,000 I need to leave in the fall. Please prayerfully consider donating as a one-time or monthly supporter. I could really use prayers on meeting some people who are in a place financially where they can donate a substantial amount.

Thank you so much to my  prayer warriors! You guys are incredible and I can absolutely feel the prayers coming my way  and I know God is going to use y’all to speak His words to me.

Te Amo Con Todo Mi Corazon,

Helenita

This girl is the best reason for being home!!