All that is truly GOOD

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Apparently, people enjoy reading my blogs and email updates because I share my struggles and try to be vulnerable.
If you would have told me 2 years ago that that’s the kind of material I’d be writing, I would have laughed in your face.
I don’t know when in my life I decided to get comfortable with baring my soul to the world, but I guess it happened, and as a result I am seriously filled with freedom.

So without further ado, please let me impart my latest learning experience and where my heart’s at.

If you’ve been following me on Twitter or Facebook, you know that I am in the States now, and this transition has been ROUGH.
I went back to Nicaragua (through the help of your donations and encouragement) for about a month to say my goodbyes and tie up the loose ends I had left behind. Deciding to go back to the States was all so sudden and unexpected, I was kind of caught off guard and I left without really feeling settled in my spirit. So the trip back was really needed.
Going back, I experienced a range of emotions and felt things that I can’t even begin to describe. My heart broke more and more every day that I spent sitting at peoples’ houses, helping with homework, cooking food, playing with children, having deep conversations, loving on my families…
I was falling apart and had absolutely no idea how to control it or keep it together.

I went into this trip with a firm resolve not to count down the days or think about leaving. I was going to live in the moment, concentrate on the here and now, and not worry about how I was going to say goodbye. It worked, almost too well.
When I got to the last couple days, I started panicking. See, I fit in so well in Nicaragua. I honestly could see myself just living there, and having a completely happy life. I was on a bus headed to Managua to get to the airport and I was having serious thoughts about not getting on my plane.
The only thing that kept me going was that I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord has called me to go to Honduras. Growing up and being an adult means that I can’t just do whatever FEELS good. It might feel good to stay in Nicaragua, but what are the long-term consequences of that? I have already spoken about moving to Honduras, about feeling God’s calling there…so if I had decided to stay, what kind of example is that for my friends in Nicaragua?
It’s a bad one. It’s an example of someone choosing to ignore God and be selfish. That’s what.
I am confident enough in my vulnerability to admit that to you all.

See, I think my main wound of leaving is that in Nicaragua I experienced a kind of love and acceptance I had never felt before, EVER in my life.
Not in the States, not anywhere else.
I built relationships with people who really really cared about me and kept up with my life, wanting to know how I was. And more than that, people wanted to tell me about THEIR lives and wanted to be encouraged and loved on.

So I guess I was angry that God was taking me out of the one place I’ve felt truly accepted and loved and just a good fit. I don’t know if I believe I can find those relationships again and that kind of fulfillment.
But I’m realizing that that’s the problem.
I’m finding my fulfillment in how I FEEL. And how I feel is perhaps different from the truth.
If I truly believe that God is sending me to Honduras (which I do), I know He will provide, and I know things will work out.

Psalm 16, verse 2 says in The Voice version,
“I told You, Eternal One, ‘You are my Lord, for the only good I know in this world is found in You alone.'”

All those truly beautiful, purely good moments and experiences I felt in Nicaragua were from Christ alone. The moments I felt so incredibly blessed and loved and in the Spirit, those were from Jesus.
Since He is calling me to Honduras, there will be more of that good. The only difference is that it will be in a different location.
That good wasn’t happening only because it was in Nicaragua.
God doesn’t change. Locations will, people will, relationships will, but God doesn’t.
I just need to work on trusting Him that He will do all He has promised.

I’m excited to take you all on this journey with me…and I really need the encouragement and support!
I am in the States now, so please let me know if you would like to get together and talk about my past, current, and future missions!
I would love to come share with your church/youth group/bible study/club/school/group/event/etc!

A few pictures from this trip:

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

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Pure and Simple

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I am feeling absolutely WRECKED in who I am as a person, as a Christian, as a friend, as a sister, as a daughter, as a missionary, as a gringa…any and all of the things I’m identified as.

Even though I have the love and freedom of Christ in me, why is it that I feel so insufficient?

Why do I fail so many times and always resort to berating myself for being a hypocrite/bad person/worthless Christian?

I just want to know if I am the only person who hasn’t figured out a life without shame and regret and doubts.

I am the only person whose mind is constantly consumed with their own failures?

Add that to me about to make a seemingly life-changing decision…and I’m a mess. Wrecked.

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But I really feel like God’s saying,

Don’t give up on me.

Don’t give up that I promised I will never leave or forsake you.

Don’t give up on me and my plans, don’t believe the lie that you know what’s best for your life.

Don’t give up hope that the things I’ve spoken over your life will come to fruition.

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I’m finding that I’m identifying myself by all the things the world calls me and says about those things.

But see, even that makes me feel like a failure as a Christian.

See how this is a whole vicious cycle for me?

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“Stay focused on what’s above, not earthly things, because your old life is dead and gone. Your new life is now hidden, enmeshed with the Anointed, who is in God.” – Colossians 3:2-3

So what’s above? Who and what does God say I am? How can I feel worthy to hold any of these titles of Christian or Missionary?

“But God, with the unfathomable richness of His love and mercy focused on us, united us with the Anointed One and infused our lifeless souls with life – even though we were buried under mountains of sin – and saved us by His grace. He raised us up with Him and seated us in the heavenly realms with our beloved Jesus the Anointed, the Liberating King. He did this for a reason: so that for all eternity we will stand as a living testimony to the incredible riches of His grace and kindness that He freely gives to us by uniting us with Jesus the Anointed. For it’s by God’s Grace that you have been saved. You receive it through faith. It was not our plan or our effort. It is God’s gift, pure and simple. You didn’t earn it, not one of us did, so don’t go around bragging that you must have done something amazing. For we are the product of His hand, heaven’s poetry etched on lives, created in the Anointed, Jesus, to accomplish the good works God arranged long ago.” – Ephesians 2:4-10

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THIS is my identity.

How many times does God have to tell me it’s not by my works that I am saved or made worthy?

I am a living testimony to HIS GRACE.

By living, and just following him on his wild adventure, I am fulfilling everything he ever created me to be.

Can I just try to explain how much weight that takes off my chest?

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I can’t feel like a failure when I read and contemplate these beautiful words.

It’s not a complicated thing, to feel like I’m fulfilling God’s purpose.

I just need to narrow my vision,

concentrate on the light from heaven,

soak in the peace that’s always being offered,

revel in the boundless love I’m constantly being embraced by.

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“It’s God’s gift, pure and simple.”

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The Ukelele Worship – Live Sessions is an unedited, raw, fresh new group of worship songs written and performed by Haille Krieg. All the songs have been written and recorded in Nicaragua, as that is where Haille is living as a missionary to a small village called Candelaria. The purpose is to share the creative praise and adoration of a simple loving soul unto a great and marvelous God.

I have a return date!!
December 17th I will be flying back to Detroit, MI to spend Christmas with my family and to see about support.

I will be home for at least a month, depending on how much of my support I will be able to raise.

While I am home, I would LOVE to come to your church, school, group, club, organization, etc. to share about what I am doing here in Nicaragua and how you all can partner with me and be a part of the beautiful work that God’s doing in our little village.

Please let me know as soon as possible so I can make out a schedule of what my time home is going to look like! I would be so grateful to have opportunities to share and get the word out about my organization and mission.

One last thing…if you are so lucky to have a spare car that I would be able to borrow for some time I’m in the States, I would be eternally grateful. The way things are looking right now, I will probably have to mooch a lot of rides. Which, you know, definitely produces a lot of humility, and that’s a good thing too. 

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

Heart Vomit

OH MAN.

These past couple months.

I don’t even know where to start.

Actually, I’d really like to start by saying I am OVER-JOYED to announce that we have come up with COMPLETE funding for my precious Alan David to get his MRI taken to find out if a tumor in his leg is cancerous or not. A HUGE thank you to Jessalyn Bradfield for raising the money! Read about what happened to him at the end of this blog.

1078933_10200944325083613_1273533181_oJesus knew I needed a miracle with this one. I spent some time today interceding in prayer for various situations that have been/are still going on in my life and lives of those that I love. One of which was Alan, and the fact that we didn’t have the money to take him to get an MRI for his leg. I have seen the X-rays, I know how bad it looks. I just need to know how bad it really is. I am confident that God can and will heal Alan, but we NEEDED to get a move on with the medical procedures.
So after I had prayed for awhile, I tried to take a nap as I wasn’t feeling so great. I couldn’t sleep so I decided to check my e-mails. The first thing that popped up was an e-mail from Jessalyn saying that 45 minutes after she posted a fund-raiser on Facebook, the entire amount had been raised. I sat there crying, marveling at the goodness of God and this huge answer to prayer.
Please continue in your prayers for Alan and his family as we begin to move forward and start going to appointments and getting good or bad news. There is a purpose and a plan in all this, I truly believe, and God is at work.

Another thing y’all could be praying for is I am getting hit over and over again with different sicknesses and illnesses and infections and such. Migraines, stomach pain, skin infection, cold, cough…all in the past week and a half. It just adds to all the emotional struggles I’ve been having and makes me a real miserable person to be around. Not to mention I have had more things stolen this week than I have in my entire time I’ve been living in Nicaragua.

August started with Brandon leaving and me taking over Worship completely. It’s gone well so far, and although I had been looking to this time with hesitancy and fear of failure, I am starting to feel a lot more comfortable with it all. Me taking over 100% means I am responsible for all practices, picking out songs, setting up the stage, playing the music by myself, and dealing with any issues that might come up. The thing that was the most met with trepidation by me was playing piano all by myself and that being the only music. But this is a great opportunity for me to grow more in the music aspect of worship since I have been absent from it for awhile. Once I found out my true love is singing, piano got pushed to the side for so long, especially since I was extremely spoiled with AMAZING musician friends. I am excited for this new season and the way God is already working in unity and vulnerability within our team.

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And now the real messy stuff. This is titled Heart Vomit for a reason.
I have been struggling emotionally lately. To be completely honest, I have been feeling really useless and replaceable.
These are feelings that have plagued me my entire life and have been the cause of much strife and depression.
I really thought I had worked it all through with God, but He is trying to take me into a deeper place of healing.
I feel stuck in some ways. I want to move forward but I don’t know where the Lord wants me. I don’t want to move backwards though and mess anything up. I am really actually a control freak if you haven’t figured that out by now. Hi, welcome to my life.
I have been fighting against community, against making an effort to be involved and not wanting to be the first one to make a move.
My heart aches for someone to live here and want to be with me and understand me.
I love and cherish my time with the people I live with and work with but I just don’t have that relationship with anyone here.
I want to be needed and wanted and desired.
I get upset too easily when people aren’t perfect.
This is who I am and what I’m going through now and it seems impossibly hopeless.
I feel like I’m wandering a lot right now emotionally and just NEEDING and CRAVING a place to rest and take a break from all the mental tension I’m unnecessarily putting on myself.

Thankfully, my Jesus cares for me in unfathomably perfect ways and is just preparing me for times that I will need to be stronger than what I think I’m capable of right now. So He puts things like today’s Jesus Calling right in front of my face for me to find hope and life.

“Understanding with never bring you peace. That’s why I have instructed you to trust in Me, not in your understanding. Human beings have a voracious appetite for trying to figure things out, in order to gain a sense of mastery over their lives. But the world presents you with an endless series of problems….My Peace is into an elusive goal, hidden at the center of some complicated maze. Actually you are always enveloped in my Peace…”

It’s as simple as this: The Lord is preparing me for something greater than I can imagine. You can be sure the enemy would love nothing more than to stop this grand purpose and have his way with my life. But God promises this will not come to pass if I rely on my faith and trust in Him,

“…the Lord is true to His promises; He will hold you up and guard you against the evil one….May the Lord guide your hearts into God’s pure love and keep you headed straight into the strong and sure grip of the Anointed One.”
– 2 Thessalonians 3:3 & 5

Pray for my heart please.
Jesus is renewing it and re-starting the fire he placed in it from the day I was created.
I love my life with everything inside me but nobody ever promised me it would be easy.
Life as a missionary in a village in a third world country was never going to be an easy thing.
But it’s worth it. It’s SO worth it.
Every victory over-shadows any discouragement that’s come along.
I believe with all my soul that GOOD WILL WIN.
The victory is ours.

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.

A Renewing of My Heart

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So let me tell you about this conference I went to in Matagalpa this past week. It was held by Bethel church of Reddington, CA, specifically their School of the Supernatural. Lisa, Cadence, and I went since it was mostly intended for the leaders of different organizations and churches in Nicaragua

The very first night of the conference, the lady who was in charge of the Bethel team, Julie Peters, preached on asking the Lord for things…you know, like not just assuming that He knows everything (which He does), but having that relationship with him that you are comfortable with asking for his gifts and believing you are worthy to receive them. So she asked us, “What are you craving from God? What is it that you want so much?”
I’ve been thinking and praying lately in some promises that God’s given me. Promises that I’ve been carrying for over a year now. And I knew that’s what I needed to start praying for, what I was CRAVING from God. I’ve had my time of waiting, and it’s been so good in growing patience in my heart and learning from God about waiting. After praying about it a lot, I feel in my heart like it’s time to start asking God to start completing those promises. I will still wait tirelessly and patiently, but it’s time to start asking.

So that started off the conference. Worship was amazing every time, some really gifted Nicaraguans led it. My heart was so full and open to all the teachings and spirit moments that we had. God worked through a lot of MESSY things that were going on my heart. Like, the fact that sometimes, I still feel replaceable, and it really hurts still. It’s a pain that’s very deep in my soul that God is wanting to bring a deeper healing to. I hadn’t realized that until a situation came up that I felt so very replaced. I’m working on finding where my worth really lies. Like really. I can say where I want it to lie but if I don’t believe it, I’m not living in the truth and it just gives me more feelings of frustration.

My earlier feelings and prayers about God’s promises for my life were incredibly confirmed later on in the week when a couple of people really spoke into my life about how they saw my spirit and where God had me in my life. What they both said was that ever since they had met me or seen me, they just saw rainbows. Rainbows and color and life. And what do rainbows signify? PROMISES. Right? They said that they see the holy spirit in me in a very distinct way, that I have the characteristics of the holy spirit. I just keep getting told that my voice is powerful.  And then things with kids. A Nicaraguan pastor came up to me after a session one day and said he had some words for me from God that he had to share. He said I have a prophetic calling on my life that is very evident. I will raise children (not necessarily my own) that will grow up to be great, influential people, like presidents. Later on in the week a member of the Bethel team prayed for me and told me that all he could see were little children just clinging to me, holding on and needing to be with me. None of these people knew me all that well and definitely didn’t know my story, my hopes, dreams, and plans. I had so much encouragement about worship as well, and a lot of people who just really believed in my dreams and purpose for being here and influencing the worship program.

It was all just so much wonderfulness…and you know, I absolutely prayed about all of it and didn’t just take it at anyone’s word. I firmly believe in not just assuming that someone’s word is true, because we’re all humans and make mistakes, but all their words were things that confirmed what I had already heard from God or things I’ve been hearing numerous times.

God put this new joy in my heart from my time at the conference. He showed me so much of his goodness and gloriousness and all about how he is SOVEREIGN. Also, that I put all my trust in him alone and look to him for help and solace.

After my time at the conference, I feel very refreshed and rejuvenated in my relationship with the Lord. Renewed in the purpose he placed in my heart and excited to begin anew in his plans.

I walked away with a freer spirit, a deeper relationship with God, healing from past hurts, and hope for my future.

God is Good!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.

June 2013 Update

IMG_2692Welcome to the beautiful month of June in Nicaragua!
We are now full on into rainy season! So let the mud baths and drenching bicycle rides begin.

This picture above perfectly describes this month for me. OK, I know that was a long shot, but just bear with me…I’ll explain.
I am in a place of waiting right now – waiting expectantly.
Here, Esmerelda, Delila, Julissa, and I are waiting for Maykeling to get some tasty Guayaba out of the tree for us.
In my life, I can see the fruit that God has for me, I see Him preparing it and getting ready to release it, but I’m waiting for the perfect time. Actually, God’s waiting for the perfect time to give it to me and I am resting in His promise that He will be faithful.

If you know me at all, you know I am not the best at having patience. I don’t like surprises if someone tells me beforehand, and I really just enjoy things happening in the moment, spontaneously. It’s hard for me to hear things and then be told to wait.
I admit it, I’m a child.

And in my childish ways I fail to see the ways that God is trying to work in these times of waiting. I miss that He’s just trying to sit and talk with me, comfort me, encourage me, wrap me in His arms of love.
So I have given up with trying to have my way, trying to cajole and plead for Him to just give it to me – NOW!
I have spent the last month praying for God to fill me up in this time.
I have been filled with His presence and soaked up His goodness.

Now I am asking God to satisfy this craving of mine for these things to start happening.
I am asking for Him to start fulfilling these promises.
I will wait.
I will wait as long as it takes, but I am praying prayers of readiness. Equip me O God, I am ready to get into the battle.

So that’s what’s been going on in my life personally since I’ve been back.
The other things are mainly getting transitioned back to living here. Us missionaries moved to a little house right outside the village of Candelaria, we now live in Las Palmeras.
It is wonderful, I have my own room, it’s painted bright yellow, and I have WINDOWS. It’s hard not being so close to people at night, I used to really love being able to go and sit at someone’s house until about 10 or 11pm, just having great conversation…but this is how things are now, and I am content. I am convinced God has the best for me. Pray for us as we figure out the dynamics of transportation, additional expenses, relationships, and finishing the last building projects at the house.

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IMG_2687Our Panaderia is in full force! They are making loads of bread everyday and selling every last bit. I can’t wait to see them turn a profit and expand! It is a blessing to see God working in the new businesses we’re starting. There are only more good things to come!

IMG_2756Here we are at our Mother’s Day service at church! This holiday is extremely important and celebrated here. These mothers are amazing and work so hard for their family! The youth planned a whole night to celebrate them. It included worship, a teaching, games, gifts, dancing, and more. This game was for moms who had daughters in the youth group to try and guess which girl was their daughter with a blindfold on, only touching their face. It was hilarious! We know that parenting is hard in the village life, there are situations that are unavoidable, but we are so proud of the moms in our community that choose to be different. The moms who choose to love their children unconditionally and pray for them in all situations. They are important leaders in the village of Candelaria!

IMG_2767On our way to a special service in Santa Matilde. This is a typical truck ride, filled to the brim with people. Carolyn who is pictured with me is one of our summer interns! She is so sweet and hilarious, with a real heart for children and loving people.

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IMG_2794This was one of my favorite days this week! Darling Rosa heard that I love piglets, so invited me to her house to hold them and love them and take pictures. So we did that, and then I found out she also had baby puppies and baby ducklings as well! After I got done snuggling the loveys, Rosa informed me that her daughter’s pig was pregnant, and I HAD to go see it because it’s humongous.
It was enormous. Pregnant with at least 10 piglets.
And then we went for a tour of all the houses that she knew that had pigs.
She gets me! She is the only one who understand my love for pigs!
It’s great.

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.

 

Waiting For Isaac

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“Now the Lord was gracious to Sarah as he had said, and the Lord did for Sarah what he had promised. Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him.”

Genesis 21:1-2

How sweet are the fulfilled promises of our loving Father. Our Father who is GOOD and loves to give GOOD things to His children.

How bittersweet is the waiting.

The incredible experience of hearing from God and knowing a little more of His plans for you is juxtaposed with the aching emptiness of knowing what you want and needing to have patience for the right timing.

Abraham was a man of faith. But even He had doubts and wanted to take control for a little bit. So he had Ishmael with Hagar, His wife Sarah’s servant. God had promised him a son in his old age, but it was a pretty unbelievable thing, and so he made sure that he had security. God was still faithful in His promise, still gave Abraham his son, but he did end up with a little bit of a mess, having another son.

I was reminded of this story by my dear friend Brandon as I spent a night struggling with impatience of waiting.

GOD. IS. FAITHFUL.

He remembers His children and His promises are true.

I am going to try and be intentional this month about keeping my mind set in waiting for Isaac, instead of settling for Ishmael.

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In other news, I am heading home April 21st to spend a month visiting my family, friends, and church. I am so excited to be able to take a period of time to rest and rejuvenate. My mind is in need of peace and a chance to be reminded of the Lord’s promises. I’m impatient right now to start doing exactly what I want with children, but this is something that I need to be waiting for. It will hopefully be a pretty big commitment and I’m realizing that takes a lot of time to plan.

For now, I am really excited with the things the Lord has put in front of me for the present time. I am now the littlest kids Sunday School teacher and I am absolutely ADORING it. I’ve gotten more involved with Sunday School, going to all the meetings and trying to be a part of the very special team of youth that almost completely run Sunday mornings. They are all winners and make me so happy. I am so proud to be in their lives and see the differences and big changes they are making in the lives of kids in their community.

In addition to that, I’ve talked with the director of the Preschool here in Candelaria and have gotten permission to come and help out whenever I really have free time. It sure is nice having the freedom of being a white person in a foreign country 🙂
So, this week is going to be the start of me going 3 days a week to the local Preschool and helping out in the afternoons for a few hours. I’m really excited to get to know more of the young families in my community and start loving on their sweet babies.

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Part of my dear sweet Santa Matilde family: Griselda and her baby, my god-baby Glaysi. I adore my time with them, loving and being loved.

Stay tuned for a photo update from my month of March! Thank you for your prayers and keeping me and my community in your thoughts!

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