Living Water/Agua Viva

Let me explain my personality, and maybe you can relate:

Ever since I can remember (and my parents tell me I was like this from the moment I was born), I fight to get what I want. If there’s something I want to go after, there is no convincing me that I won’t get it if I work hard enough. This has it’s redeeming qualities – I fight for what I love and don’t give up when things get tough, I go after things that frighten me just to conquer them, and I’ve accomplished things out of pure determination not to fail. I compete with myself constantly to show that I can be bigger and better.

However.

When there are obstacles in my life that I truly can’t do anything about, when I can’t convince someone of what I think they need to know or feel, and when situations are completely out of my control to change, I get frustrated and defeated. I feel like I’ve failed.

I go hard and I go fast, and my entire life I’ve been an intense person. As fierce as I love, failure is just as earth shattering.

When I come to road blocks in the places of my life where I want to continue, it’s very hard for me to accept. I feel drained, spent, burnt out. I put all my energy into something, and all my energy  isn’t enough.

Does anyone else feel this way?

These past couple weeks I have been doing some heavy reflection on my heart and from where I’m drawing energy to go so hard at the main challenges of my life right now. Why have I felt so insufficient lately?

I was reading John 4 and it jumped out at me so obviously that I couldn’t miss it.

Jesus has such a kind and gentle way of explaining these huge mysteries to us, that I think sometimes they seem so simple that we don’t look for the big message He’s trying to get to us. In John 4, He explains to a woman at the well that the water He offers, living water, is so much better than anything she could get from that ordinary well. He says,
“Everyone who drinks from this water will get thirsty again. But whoever drinks from the water that I will give him will never get thirsty again. In fact, the water I will give him will become a well of water springing up in him for eternal life.”

I have my own personal well inside me. I draw from my own strength and energy and reservoir of love, and sometimes, I hit the bottom of the well and it’s completely dry. Many times, I am stretching out that last bucket of water and making every drop count.
I am left feeling hurt, because I wasn’t enough.
I’m tired of loving, because what I give from my own well is my personal supply, and I’m doling it out bucket after bucket.

Someone asked me a few weeks ago what my purpose in life was, what did I feel called to do with my one life.
My first instinct was to say, “Help people!”, because that’s what makes me feel useful. I love feeling useful.
But a few days ago, God asked me if I remembered what He first told me years ago when I was starting to ask Him what He wanted me to do with my life.
And I remembered that what He told me He created me for wasn’t to “help” people.
I was called to love. To love and to love and to love and to pour out even more love, and through that God was going to work in His way and in His time.

Truthfully, no one needs my help. It’s impossible for me to “fix” anyone. But what everyone needs is love and grace. Once you start to love someone and see them as God does, it’s easy to see how you can be useful in their life.

The past couple years I have been drawing from my very limited supply of love. I’ve tried to love people my way and with the few resources I have. That love has an end to it, a limit that I seem to reach over and over again.

So this week God has been gently reminding me to draw from His well that He provides me. He has been inviting me to drink of His living water until that well becomes a part of me and I never feel thirsty again. He’s encouraging me to love on people but not from what I think I can give them. He’s showing me that when I draw from His unending supply of living water, love doesn’t have to hurt, it doesn’t have to drain me, and it can be the most beautiful, liberating thing.


Permítanme explicar mi personalidad, y tal vez puedes identificarse:

Desde que puedo recordar (y mis padres me dicen que yo era así desde el momento en que nací), yo he luchado para conseguir lo que quiero. Si hay algo que deseo, no me puedes convencer de que no lo conseguiré si lucho lo suficiente. Esto tiene sus cualidades redentoras – lucho por lo que amo y no me rindo cuando las cosas se ponen difíciles, enfrento las cosas que me asustan sólo para conquistarlas, y he logrado metas solo por la pura determinación de no fallar. Compito constantemente con mi misma para demostrar que puedo ser más grande y mejor.

Sin embargo…

Cuando no puedo hacer nada con algunos obstáculos en mi vida, cuando no puedo convencer a alguien de lo que creo que necesitan comprender o sentir, y cuando las situaciones están fuera de mi control para cambiar, me siento frustrada y derrotada. Siento que he fallado.

Voy duro y voy rápido, y toda mi vida he sido una persona intensa. La intensidad con que demuestro amor es la misma con que caigo cuando fallo.

Cuando llego a las barricadas de la vida en lugares donde quiero seguir, es muy difícil para mí aceptar que me tengo que detener. Me siento agotada, gastada, quemada. Pongo toda mi energía en algo, y toda mi energía no es suficiente.

¿Alguien más se siente así?

Estas últimas semanas he estado haciendo una pesada reflexión en mi corazón y de donde estoy sacando energía para trabajar tan duro en los desafíos de mi vida en este momento. ¿Por qué me he sentido tan insuficiente últimamente?

Estaba leyendo a Juan 4 y lo que encontré se me hizo tan obvio que no podía perderlo.

Jesús tiene una manera tan amable y gentil de explicar los enormes misterios para nosotros. Creo que a veces parecen tan simples que no buscamos el gran mensaje que Él está tratando de ayudarnos entender. En Juan 4, Él explica a una mujer en un pozo que el agua que Él ofrece, agua viva, es mucho mejor que cualquier agua que pudiera obtener de ese pozo ordinario. Él dice,

“Cualquiera que beba de esta agua volverá a tener sed, pero el que beba del agua que yo le dé, no volverá a tener sed jamas, porque dentro de él esa agua se convertirá en un manantial del que brotará vida eterna.”

Tengo un pozo personal dentro de mí. Saco de ese pozo mi propia fuerza, energía y amor, y a veces toco el fondo del pozo y está completamente seco. Muchas veces, quiero utilizar la última gota de agua en miles de cosas.

Me siento mal, porque no soy suficiente.
Estoy cansada de amar, porque lo que doy de mi propio pozo es mi provisión personal, y lo estoy gastando balde tras balde.

Alguien me preguntó hace unas semanas cuál era mi propósito en la vida, qué era lo que me sentía llamada a hacer con mi única vida.
Mi primer instinto fue decir, “Ayuda a la gente!”, Porque eso es lo que me hace sentir útil. Me encanta sentir útil.

Pero hace unos días, Dios me preguntó si recordaba lo que Él me dijo hace años cuando yo estaba comenzando a preguntarle qué quería que hiciera con mi vida.

Y recordé que la llamada no fue simplemente para “ayudar” a la gente.

Me llamó para amar. Amar y amar y amar y derramar aún más amor, y por medio de eso Dios iba a trabajar a Su manera y en Su tiempo.

La verdad, nadie necesita mi ayuda. Es imposible que yo “arregle” a alguien. Pero lo que todo el mundo necesita es amor y gracia. Una vez que empiezas a amar a alguien y verlo como Dios lo ve, es fácil entender cómo puedes ser útil en su vida.

Los últimos dos años he estado sacando de mi muy limitado reservorio de amor. He tratado de amar a la gente a mi manera y con los pocos recursos que tengo. Ese amor tiene un fin, un límite donde llego una y otra vez.

Esta semana, Dios me ha estado recordando suavemente a sacar del pozo que Él provee. Él me ha estado invitando a beber de Su agua viva hasta que ese pozo se convierta en un manantial dentro de mí y nunca volveré a sentir sed. Me anima a amar a la gente, pero no con lo que creo que puedo darles. Él me está mostrando que cuando yo saco de Su provisión interminable de agua viva, no tengo que sentir lastimada cuando demuestro amor, no tengo que sentir agostada, y puede ser la cosa más hermosa y liberadora.

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The Best Ministry Moment Yet

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Last night was one of the most rewarding ministry moments of my entire life.
This past weekend we took a group of over 30 people (mostly youth ages 14-27) to a retreat/conference with the new church we are helping to plant and minister in.
To be completely honest, the weekend started off slightly uncomfortable, with much of the ministry being something I’m not used to.
I think what changed it for me was seeing the youth we brought having encounters with the Lord that were ROCKING their world.
Youth that were either new Christians or not Christians at all.
Youth that were using drugs every day,
youth who worked with a gang,
youth who had been abused by their family,
youth who had so much hate and resentment in their hearts,
youth who are desperately searching for love in all the wrong places.
They came back changed in a way I have never seen before in my entire life, and I’ve been going to church since I was a baby.

Everyone says, and the truth is that it usually happens: That people, and especially youth, will come back from a retreat on a spiritual high, and it won’t last. They’ll just go back to the same habits and life they were living before.

I chose and am choosing every day to believe and pray that this will not happen with our new warriors.

Last night we had our first church service since coming back from the retreat.
Our usual attendance is never more than 20 people on a good night, and Mario’s family makes up the majority.
Last night we had over 50 people attend.
And they weren’t people that had just heard about our church…they were family, friends, acquaintances, and neighbors of all the youth that went on the retreat.
They brought their mothers who at one time had said they don’t love them, their siblings that they had denied for years, their children who had never seen the inside of a church building, and their neighbors that they had gossiped about and laughed at.

Their faces are changed. There’s an actual physical change in their appearances and the way they carry themselves.
They couldn’t stop smiling, the mouths were full of AMENs and GOD BLESS YOUs.
They had been watching the whole retreat how the leaders would be the first to lay hands on those who need prayers, the first ones to start singing and lifting their hands up to heaven, the first to help and support the pastor with whatever the Lord put on his heart.
As the message ended and we entered into a time of worship and prayer, and an invitation to be a part of this revolution, our warriors took on their new roles without anyone telling them what to do. They worshiped the Lord with all their hearts but kept an eye on the others, scurrying over to someone who was crying to lift their hands up and pray blessings over their soul.

I was humbled beyond words. Youth that I, before, would have never even dreamed about even inviting to church stood in front of the congregation and told their testimonies of how God changed their hearts. In front of everyone they asked their families to forgive them, they asked to be held accountable to not return to their past, and they declared their commitments to the Lord.
They cried as their siblings that they had invited stepped forward and accepted the challenge of living for Christ.

It was incredible.

Afterward, the pastor got the youth together and we went to three houses to pray for families that the Lord had put on the pastor’s heart. That was a whole OTHER experience.
These youth were not all friends before the retreat. Some of them were even enemies. They had some serious beef with each other.
But the last day of the retreat, and from then on, that hate and resentment was banished from our group.
Walking down the roads of Porvenir, everyone was holding hands, and telling each other I LOVE YOU and I CARE ABOUT YOU and WHAT’S WRONG and WE’LL PRAY ABOUT THAT!
After prayer, we had a meeting and the pastor explained what the next few weeks would look like.
We are so passionate that this fire will not be put out.
These warriors have their schedule, their jobs, and their responsibilities. I truly think structure and taking ownership will be the keys to not losing the “spiritual high”.

I NEED YOUR PRAYERS!

More than ever these guys need prayers. God took them out of some HEAVY stuff, and it could be so easy to return.
If you’ve been a Christian for any amount of time, you know that although many things become more easier after letting God take control of your life, the devil comes in SO strong to tempt and destroy and take back what he thinks is his.

Help me in proclaiming DELIVERANCE and REDEMPTION over these new lives and for the Holy Spirit to transform their minds and old ways of thinking.
Pray for their unity, and for the direction the group should go in.

Pray for our church building! The one we don’t have yet!
Right now we’re meeting at Mario’s house, and we don’t fit anymore. There aren’t enough chairs or space.
We’re looking at a couple of properties, but we also need the Lord to provide the funds.

You guys.
I am SO EXCITED.
I am SO HONORED to be part of something so extraordinary.

Thank you thank you thank you for helping me with your prayers and financial support to be able to live here and experience the Kingdom of God in new ways every single day!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

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A Season of JOY

Well, this has been quite an interesting “season” as we say in church talk. Hah.
The past couple months have been really strange emotionally, and it’s all really taken me aback. See the truth is, I have just been SAD lately. I was waking up not wanting to see a single soul, and not feeling worthy or able to take on anyone’s drama or problems. I realize the only “fixer” of these problems is the Lord, so that takes a lot of stress off of me, but at the same time I like to think of myself as a pretty good “fixer” too, and that takes me on an emotional rollercoaster ride if I let it get away from me.

I cried a lot, I felt indescribably but also unreasonably lonely, and all the things that normally make me happy didn’t do anything for me at all.
I wracked my brain trying to figure out why this was all happening, and in the process went to the Lord a LOT, and prayed almost every waking moment. I spent so much time in the Bible, because something in the back of my mind (oh yeah, hi, holy spirit) was sure (and rightly so) that God’s words were going to be the only comfort I could find.

I am discovering that the whole season was a time to find comfort in the Lord….it was time to get my heart wrecked and refined by fire, and time to search deeper than I had ever before inside my soul and see what I was really living for.
The Lord did some serious cleansing of my heart, and changing it to want GOOD, HOLY things. I am literally just in awe, no words to describe grateful. This is what I have been praying for for so long, and it’s finally starting to take place in my life.
I read a book about King David and spent a lot of time thinking about the reason for “suffering”…for these times when it seems like problems and bad news just keep piling up.
Sometimes God does things to break us, to test our faith, and I think He really does it to a chosen few. I think the amount of people who go through hardship and strife and use that time to find their weaknesses and make themselves stronger is very small, actually.
I am the first to tell you that normally, as far as hard times go, I suffer through the darkness, feel sorry for myself, and once I get back into the light I just try to forget about how badly I felt. Honest truth.
But what I’m learning is that I need to be encouraged that God is intentionally working out my kinks and sanding off the rough edges. It means that there’s something worth saving underneath all of this, and God thinks it’s worth His time to fix me up. There are small and big things that the Lord can use me for, all equally important, but I need to be in the right place to accomplish His tasks with the right attitude and motives.

When in crisis, sadness, distress, etc….Going to the Lord and asking for His opinion and direction and WAITING for answers is infinitely more reliable and brings more peace than sharing my struggles and asking for solutions from people. Which is not to say I’ve not had amazing encouragement…because people are actually really awesome and bring a lot of joy to my life.
But I tend to go to everyone looking for answers to my problems when trustworthy guidance from someone who knows every corner of my heart would be much more trustworthy.

The season ended well. Last Sunday I felt the Lord clearly saying that I was released from that time, that I was no longer going to feel sorry for myself or play the victim, but that I was going to choose JOY every day when I woke up. Instead of waking up thinking about all my troubles, I was going to wake up thinking about and thanking God for all the blessings in my life, and I was going to get excited about all the possibilities of a new day and what God could do with it.

So, THANK YOU so much if you’ve been praying for me during this time without knowing what was going on…I would like to be the perfect missionary and christian, and have a brave face on all of the time, but the truth is that all of us are always growing, and there’s always something the Lord can change to help better ourselves and help His work be done on a greater level.

I’m excited about this new season of JOY. It’s been going so well so far! The drama is never ending here, and it’s worse since I’m by myself until Katlyn gets back from the States, but nothing is changing my joy.
Ugh, joy is just so deep. I love it. It’s a state of peace and trust that no matter what happens, there’s blessings at every turn and so many possibilities of literally anything and everything wonderful happening.
It’s sunshine and still waters and new hope.

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VERY IMPORTANT:
I will be coming home to the States from June 16th – July 17th. I NEED to do some major fundraising for Finding Hope in that time, but I need your help!
I am looking for churches, organizations, clubs, schools, small groups, etc. that are interested in supporting Finding Hope here in Honduras.
We would like to open up the first floor of our Women’s and Children’s Center by the end of the year, but we can’t do that without having monthly supporters to cover our costs, which will be about $1600 monthly.
I can go anywhere in Michigan to speak about our mission and what we do here, I just really need contacts!
Would you speak to the leaders of your church, group, school, etc. and ask if they would be interested in hearing my presentation?

I also would like to do several fundraisers like a night at a restaurant, garage sale, etc….whatever you can think of, any ideas you might have or you’d like to head up, please let me know!
It’s so difficult to fundraise from Honduras, and I want to be somewhat prepared before I get home, but I will definitely need some help.
Thanks for your consideration!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

Adiós

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Trying to write a note to the parents of our Sunday School kids in La Invasión and I’m bawling my eyes out.

I know God has a plan in everything, and I can already see where He’s working and how He’ll do such amazing things with the direction of where Sunday School’s going, but my heart aches.

This note is a goodbye note, an Adiós to the precious families who live in the LI barrio. We’re not moving, our ministry’s not going anywhere, but Sunday School is re-locating. It’s been such a hard decision! Katlyn started this Sunday School over a year ago in this particular neighborhood because they didn’t have one. It’s held out of a local pastor’s house where he also meets with his congregation. She started small, but the Lord really blessed it and now anywhere from 30-50 kids show up every Sunday.

We love our time with them! They are a handful at times but so joyful and eager to learn.

A couple months ago, we started having some little problems within two churches – the one we meet at and the one next door. They do not get along, but for so many complicated reasons that it’s not worth explaining. All you have to know is that they have  a messy past together.
They tried to get us in the middle of their fights and make us choose a side. The next door church wanted us to bring our Sunday School to their property, but doing so would put a big strain on our relationship we already have with the pastor and his family at the location we currently meet.
We tried meetings and compromises….explaining that we were not affiliated with either church but that we came for the children, that they were our purpose and mission. We tried suggesting having a neutral location, at neither of their churches but with the understanding that both would support us and come to help out twice a month.

The result? Church next door decided to start their own Sunday School in the morning (ours is in the afternoon because of morning conflicts). Now, it really doesn’t make any sense to have two Sunday Schools in one day, in the same neighborhood when there are plenty of other places that don’t have a single one, right?
Also, we have nothing against this new Sunday School, they do a great job! It just wasn’t necessary to have two.

So, after much prayer and logistics planning, Katlyn and I have decided to let this new Sunday School have the area, and we will start a new Sunday School in a new neighborhood where there is none. We cried about it, screamed our frustrations, and went insane trying to find a way to stay. I realize this must sound just SO dramatic, with all the emotions and seriousness, but our hearts are really invested in the kids and the community.
However, as we began to talk about what could happen, how we could turn a negative into a positive, the light began to shine. What if our purpose is to do some sort of Sunday School planting?
God had blessed our efforts in LI and grown the group in big ways. All those kids will continue going to Sunday School, just at a different location and with different leaders. That’s not so bad.
Now, we have this great opportunity to do the same thing for a different neighborhood. And really, we could just keep on going. The possibilities are endless!

We feel so much peace about the decision and know it was the right one. It also came at the perfect time, since this is the last Sunday we’ll have before taking some big trips. I’m leaving for Nicaragua for 2 or 3 weeks on Monday, Kate’s leaving for the States on Thursday, she won’t get back until June 10th, and then I’ll leave to do some fund-raising in the States. After the dust is settled and we’re back at home, we can get started on this new venture.

Please be praying for understanding and respect within the community for our decision, and that they’ll continue sending their kids to the new Sunday School.
And just pray for our hearts too, because this is SO bittersweet. Like I said, bawling my eyes out here just thinking about not getting to see those cute faces every Sunday.

Thanks as always for your prayers, encouragement, well wishes, and good vibes!!!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

hallelujah.

I’ve been warned against the “Health and Wealth” gospel so many times.

Basically, that just because I live a holy life and do the right things,  it doesn’t mean that everything will work out for me and be great.

I’ve tried to be really cautious against unconsciously living with this mindset – expecting things to be perfect once I change my life and stop sinning in the areas where I’m weak.

So I have this in my mind, and sometimes I want to test myself with it. Like, I want to do the right thing, and have none of my problems change, and see if I can stand it…see if my faith falters or stands strong.

Sometimes, I find myself far from the Lord, or giving into some weakness, or I haven’t spent intentional time seeking His guidance and being in His presence. Once I get it back together and find myself on the right path again, I almost always end up with some real, material, visible blessings.

It’s actually kind of crazy. I haven’t really understood it until now.

It made me think that maybe the Health and Wealth thing wasn’t so far off.

BUT.
This morning.
Jesus really spoke to my heart about my awareness of His favor.

I think…
What my individual, personal issue is…
Is that during these times that I’m not intentionally spending time to soak, soar, and seek in and with the Holy Spirit…when I’m not consciously in communion with my Abba…
I am not aware of His CONTINUAL favor and blessings in my life.

Once I get straight with Him, I see so much clearer the areas where He is touching my life.

It’s not that the blessings come only when I’m seeking Him,
They are always there, I’m just not looking for them or seeing them.

Does that kind of make sense?

In short, I am an oblivious human being. I need to constantly be in communication and relationship with Jesus to have His eyes.
His eyes that are going to show me His new mercies, grace, love gifts, presence, beauty, and power that are all present in every day of my life.

Lesson learned?
I need more Jesus.
Always.
Forever.

Wishing peace, love, and adventures in your lives, Friends.
HAILLE OUT

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This revelation came while I was spending time listening to the entirety of Steffany Gretzinger’s new album The Undoing. She is my musical soulmate, saying every unspoken word that’s in my heart with musicality that is straight from the heavens. She writes music and worships in every single way that I would want to. 
Take an hour out of your day to just revel in the beauty of the Lord with this album as your soundtrack. Watch as the Lord’s favor surrounds you and breathes new life into your day. It is vulnerable, intimate, and breathtaking. Consider buying it and supporting this amazing artist!
And listen to it HERE.

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

 

Actions Speak Louder Than Words

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Heading into month 3 of living here in El Porvenir, I am getting a more of a feel for this town and starting to look for ways that God wants to use Finding Hope here in this community. Since Katlyn has been here for so long, she has lots of great relationships and friendships that I get to be a part of and share in. Our focus is mostly with women, so we get to hear many stories of their lives and individual situations.

I love them. I love each and every one of their precious hearts and beautiful faces. They are full of life and love, beauty and pain, light and darkness, and so many unique character qualities and traits. Having an opportunity to provide for their families by making and selling bracelets through Finding Hope is giving them power and control over their lives to make choices and decisions, and this gives them a small sense of freedom. It’s an amazing thing to see, and I attribute most of it to the dream the Lord placed on Katlyn’s heart to help these women in a real and effective way.

Since I moved here, Katlyn and I have been discussing and dreaming up ways to make a positive impact on this community once the Women and Children’s Center is built. We are so blessed that God has given us very similar hearts for Central America and desires and hopes that line up almost exactly. As I’ve mentioned before, once the Center is built, we will have facilities for teaching the beading and bracelet-making, sewing classes, women’s bible studies, a feeding center, a daycare, and whatever else the Lord puts on our hearts. We believe this will be a great outreach to the community, a place to connect and do life together, somewhere safe and trustworthy.

We’re making some serious headway with construction, having just finished the bathrooms and getting ready to pour floors in, and hopefully having 3 rooms built by November. Even though it’s not finished, we’ve been praying for something bigger.

See, a lot of conversations we have with women here about their lives are very similar – they got pregnant at an early age, if the guy didn’t run away they moved in with him, he started abusing them, they can’t leave because they don’t have work and can’t find it without skills, and that’s what life is. It’s accepted and women settle for being under-valued, under-appreciated, lonely, and abused.
We were talking to one woman this past week who was telling us her story, which was very much like ones we’ve heard before, and she summed it up for all the women we’ve listened to with this phrase:
“So, this is how my life is now. It’s complicated.”

It broke my heart. She is unhappy with the man she’s living with right now, for valid reasons, but she couldn’t leave him even if she wanted to. She has 2 young children – 2 years and 1 month old – and doesn’t live anywhere near to her immediate family. She can’t get work anywhere to provide for her kids if she wanted to move out, and she wouldn’t be able to leave with such a small children at home anyway.
We can spend all day talking to her about how she should just press on, that things will work out eventually, that we’re praying for her, that we’ll come visit as often as we can…but the truth is, I’m not completely sure that her situation will change. We can disciple her and give her the hope of Jesus and his grace and forgiveness, but her husband might continue to abuse her.

We want to be able to do something bigger and more meaningful than just talk.

Our dream for Finding Hope is to be able to build a second floor onto the Center for women and children in abusive and dangerous situations. We want to make a safe place for them to feel secure and loved, a place where they can get on their feet and figure out the next steps.

It’s a big dream! We’re not even finished with the first floor, but we want to start praying about how powerfully God can use this building. There are so many logistics to think about and money to raise, and we realize it’s probably a ways into the future.
But we want to ask every person who reads this blog, thinks about Finding Hope, prays for our lives and this town, and is involved in any way to join us in dreaming more HOPE into El Porvenir.

And during the process of building everything, making new connections, and raising funds, please be thinking about and praying for these women who don’t have any other option but to settle.
They are real women with real stories and real lives. Mothers, sisters, wives, aunts, and daughters who are strong, powerful, influential, who love fiercely and live with passion.

“Speak out on behalf of those who have no voice,
and defend all those who have been passed over.
Open your mouth, judge fairly,
and stand up for the rights of the 
afflicted and poor.”

Proverbs 31:8-9

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1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

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Finding Hope Honduras!!

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If you haven’t been noticing my little hints lately, I’m so excited to announce that…

I’m moving to Honduras!!

As most of you know, I have been looking to move from Nicaragua to a new mission/organization to follow the dreams the Lord has put on my heart about caring for His little babes.

I appreciate the great information and contacts I’ve received from all of you, helping me along and telling me about different places you know about.

While I was praying about and checking into every one of these resources, a really fantastic girl named Katlyn contacted me after reading my blog with some really exciting information about her organization she started in the town of El Porvenir, La Ceiba, Honduras! I met Katlyn when she was traveling around Nicaragua and came to New Song to check out places where she wanted to be long-term.

She sent me a message talking about the things she’s doing in the community and about the Women and Children Center she’s working on starting…and it was so clear that this is where I was supposed to be.
We have really similar passions and hearts for Women, Children, and Community. I love that I’ve found someone who really shares my love for being part of the community wherever you live – taking on their triumphs, struggles, victories, and heartache as your own.

Here’s some info from her website, Finding Hope, which I would really encourage you to check out!

“Finding hope is about giving a deserving community a chance to thrive, connecting with local families and loving children. It is about a passion to serve and give back.”

Katlyn started a Womens Beading program to help some of the local women earn some income for their families:

“Unemployment, unfortunately, affects many families in El Porvenir. Finding Hope is working to address this issue. Currently located in two neighborhoods, we run a beading program aimed at empowering and encouraging women to provide incomes for their families.

Most of the women in this program are unemployed, many raising several kids on their own. Through our bead work program, these women are able to use resources readily available and turn them into beautiful pieces of work. By using recycled old magazines, they are able to make beautiful beads and bracelets. This becomes much more than a simple piece of paper. They are now able to buy food, medicine, school supplies and more necessities for their family.

One hundred percent of the profits of each product sold goes directly to the woman who made the bracelet. We invite you to please join us in our mission by purchasing a bracelet and help us in eradicating poverty.”

The city has donated land to Katlyn and she has been able to build the foundation of the Center so far from donations that have been generously given to her organization.
I’m excited to be a part of helping build this place from (literally) the ground up!

Currently, my plans are:

  • Make a month-long trip to Nicaragua to say my goodbyes and tie up loose ends from the middle of February to the middle of March.
  • Come back to the States and fund-raise the monthly support to live and work in Honduras.
  • Hopefully move down there before the summer starts (May/June-ish).

What YOU can do to help!

  • Money’s going to be really tight to make the trip to Nicaragua, but it really needs to be made, especially because I left most of my belongings there and I need to transport them back.
    If you would be able to financially contribute to this trip, I would really appreciate it!
    (Donation information is always at the bottom of my blogs or on the side of my blog as well)
  • Pray for this transition and all the changes that I will be making!
  • Have me come speak (or sing!) at your event, small group, church, youth group, club, etc. about my mission and where I’m going next. Consider sponsoring me as a group and getting signed up for my blog/e-mail updates!
  • Prayerfully consider becoming a monthly supporter of my work down in Honduras.
    I am planning on being there indefinitely, until the Lord has me leave.
    Your financial support is crucial to me being able to afford the (LOW) cost of living in Honduras to be able to work on ministry with these beautiful women and children.

Thank you forever and always for your super encouraging emotional/spiritual/financial support!
I am indebted to each and every one of you who has sent me an e-mail of sweet words, come out to any of my events, read and shared this blog, donated whatever you could…
You all are seriously fantastic.

PLEASE do not hesitate to contact me with any questions you might have about absolutely anything! I will do my best to answer!

“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”
Luke 1:45 NIV

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

 

No life should be wasted

A silent scream builds at the back of my throat.

I can’t do anything.

One single person who never even went to college, who has little experience, who has no medical or scientific knowledge to combat this…

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO

…With this horrifying and awful disease that has affected every single life of every Nicaraguan I have ever met in Candelaria.
If they don’t have it, someone in their family has it or has already been killed by the sickness.

Another man I knew and saw every day has died.

His case was probably mostly due to alcoholism that had consumed his every day.

But the state of disrepair his kidneys were in due to Chronic Kidney Disease only welcomed the poison, destined to fail and destroy the health of an average Nicaraguan man.

I feel so helpless against the hand of death this disease has created, sweeping over these beautiful people who work tirelessly for their families, marking them with it’s incurable and horrible illness.

I am asking for you to read this article and learn about the unknowns of this disease: http://www.publicintegrity.org/2012/09/17/10855/kidney-disease-kills-thousands-across-continents-scientists-scramble-answers

Do you see what I mean about feeling like there’s nothing I can do as one single person?

But do you know what pains me even more than this disease killing the people I know?
It’s all the people I don’t know.
It’s all the men who fill up those school buses headed for the fields that cram into the windows to catcall at the gringas walking by.
It’s the mamas who started working at 12 years old, had a baby at 15, and finds out at 30 that her creatinine levels are through the roof.
It’s the boys who start working at 15 and are knocked flat on their back, life over at 20.

It concerns me that so many of these people are dying without knowledge of a hope that will make these last days, the hard days, the stressful days a little lighter.

This one girl can’t find the cure for a disease spreading across nations, but she can make a difference in the life of just one person….with love.

These people need to know they have a Savior that will take their pitiful, illness-ridden bodies and use them for His glory.
If they believe in His son and what He did for their lives, if they want that salvation, their bodies will be made new, clean, and holy.

Nicaragua needs to believe in a hope for a new day, a beautiful future, and a holy nation, made pure by the precious blood of Jesus.

He makes beautiful things out of the dust.

PLEASE PRAY
that this dust would be breathed to life. 
that these dry bones would rattle no more but would stand up strong.
that these broken souls will be made whole.

And please pray for the family of Pedro, who passed away on December 27th, 2013.
His daughter Jasmina and sweet granddaughter Katalin are left behind and are hurting for his loss.

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Family Ministry (A Little Bit of Heaven)

IMG-20131023-00027There’s a little thing I like to do during the week that I like to call Family Ministry.

My heart is a heart that seeks out love. I’m a feeler, and if my soul senses that love can be found in a certain area, I’m drawn to be there.

I’ve become attached to almost every single family here, but there are a few that stand out.

Their ridiculously extraordinary love they have for and show to me blesses my heart and fills my lonely ache.

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Every week I take a couple days and spend time with these families – loving, encouraging, and supporting them. I can’t even explain how much life has come from these times!
It makes me truly feel like part of the community.

From these precious times, I get to hear about their lives, testimonies, struggles, fights, and victories. I can find out their needs and communicate it to people who will most effectively be able to help them out.

They trust me, and I trust them.

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I’ve been able to see families grow in love and wholeness.

I’ve seen that moment when the light bulb turns on and a truth is recognized for what it is.

I’ve seen Jesus capture the heart of a man who found salvation through his earthly love, his wife.

I’ve seen a group of 3 families that share all they have with each other and their doors are constantly open to one another.

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My favorite thing to see is a family that is fighting to restore wholeness within themselves. The most beautiful part is when you see that selflessness is considered highest

The mother that feeds her children before herself, even if there’s just enough food for them…

The family that pools all their money together to buy the sick dad his medicine…

The child that gives his mama the sweet little ring he bought with his snack money…

The grandma who sits patiently with the child who is struggling with homework…

The aunt who walks a half hour at night to accompany her niece to go visit a sick friend…

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Something I value so much about this culture is how giving they are. My needs and wants have been considered first and foremost in these families way more many times than I have felt worthy for.

People here notice things, are observant, and will find a way to help out, even if it means searching out someone that can help you better.

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I have been sick for the past couple weeks with a cold that turned into bronchitis, that turned into pneumonia, and I’ve been treated like a PRINCESS by the huge number of people that want to see me feel better. I always had someone to go with me to the doctors, to get my medicine, to use their connections to make sure I got taken care of, to make me or buy me food, to lend me clothes, to make me sit and rest, to make me laugh, and to visit me.

My favorite day was when I went to Claudia’s house and I had 6 different women fussing over me, making me food, making sure I wasn’t too hot or too cold, spending time keeping me company…

I sat outside in a rocking chair all day long, just resting and nebulizing myself. To pass time, we got out makeup and did all the little girls up…they even did my makeup and hair!

Some turned out better than the others….

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It was a great day of laughing, healing, and being with those that I love. Every single one of them prayed for me and told me that they trusted that God would heal me quickly and completely.

Today I don’t have any wheezing, hardly any cough, and I can finally breathe OK.

I love having the support team of these precious women!

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I could go on and on with tons of stories from even just this time of being sick.

I am so blessed to be accepted into this community of strong, fierce lovers, and I make it my job to make sure they are taken care of as well by fighting in prayer for their struggles.

Will you join me?

Walter & Claudia’s family – for their church in Santa Matilde to be blessed and for them to continue to have a great impact on their community over there.

 

Blanca & Nubia’s family – for Blanca’s husband (Nubia’s dad) to be able to get medicine he needs and for healing from the kidney disease that is killing his body. That Nubia’s children would always have what they need to be taken care of.

 

Massiel’s family – that her family would be able to afford food and necessities. That her husband would use all of his paycheck toward the family.

 

Mercedes’ family – for provision in this time of no work. That her little girls would have full tummies and joyful spirits. That her little girls would be protected from the nasty men who hang out in the streets and call out to them and grab them. For one of her daughters in particular that is going to counseling, for her heart to be healed.

 

Ronniel & Jakeline’s family – for Ronniel to find work as he recently got let go from his job, for their kids to be able to pick up their grades and pass this year of school.

 

Ervin & Derma’s family – for their little 2 month old to be healthy and have a possible broken collarbone healed, for food and provisions for their family, for a possibility of them moving to have their own house.

And all the rest that I haven’t mentioned, for God to RICHLY bless their lives the way they’ve blessed mine.

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I have a return date!!
December 17th I will be flying back to Detroit, MI to spend Christmas with my family and to see about monthly supporters.

I originally committed to a year’s time in Nicaragua, and now that that time will be up on November 15th, I need to find out who wants to renew their support for me to be able to return indefinitely to Nicaragua.

I have been completely captivated by this country, its people, and our little community in Candelaria.

I truly believe this is where I’m supposed to be for an extended period in my life, and I plan to stay here until God opens up an opportunity to move somewhere else.

My main focus will be, as before, with the worship ministry here. I will be singing, playing piano, planning set lists, practicing with singers and musicians, learning and introducing new music, and encouraging the congregation through worship of our great God.

I will be home for at least a month, depending on how much of my support will continue to be given indefinitely.

While I am home, I would LOVE to come to your church, school, group, club, organization, etc. to share about what I am doing here in Nicaragua and how you all can partner with me and be a part of the beautiful work that God’s doing in our little village.

Please let me know as soon as possible so I can make out a schedule of what my time home is going to look like! I would be so grateful to have opportunities to share and get the word out about my organization and mission.

One last thing…if you are so lucky to have a spare car that I would be able to borrow for some time I’m in the States, I would be eternally grateful. The way things are looking right now, I will probably have to mooch a lot of rides. Which, you know, definitely produces a lot of humility, and that’s a good thing too. 

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

Praying for Babylon

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“Pursue the peace and welfare of the city where I sent you into exile. Pray to me, the Eternal, for Babylon because if it has peace, you will live in peace.” Jeremiah 29:7 

I loved finding this little gold nugget as I was reading Jeremiah today. Here are God’s chosen people, and they have fallen into lives of corrupt sinfulness. Their hope and faith are not in God, and they’ve abandoned Him. Since they will not listen, God has decided to let Babylon, their enemies, take over for 70 years. He says that if they give into Babylon they will see hardship, but it will be the start of them obeying Him and He will bless them for that. He says, you will be an outsider in Babylon, but I don’t want you to live out your time as a victim. You are to accept that this is where you’re supposed to be for now, and live as you would normally. Get married, have kids, and live life! God tells His people to pray for Babylon, because if the city has peace, so will they. This speaks a lot about us, and the effect we can have on our environment. It speaks about the power of prayer and how, if we believe in God’s goodness and how He says He will work everything to our good, the peace we will get from that will transcend all understanding. When God puts us through trials and tests somewhere uncomfortable, we are to be His ambassadors in these places, pursuing peace and welfare, praying for the environment, trusting in His goodness. Because ultimately, we have trust that God will see us through, as Jeremiah continues in verse 11-13:

“’For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Eternal, ‘plans for peace, not evil, to give you a future and hope – never forget that. At that time, you will call out for Me, and I will hear. You will pray, and I will listen. You will look for Me intently, and you will find Me.’” 

I’m still waiting to find out how everything went down once they were captured by Babylon and how much they actually listened to these commands once they found themselves living in captivity. The general feeling I get is probably not. So far in my reading of Jeremiah, the people have been more likely to listen to the false prophets saying that God will release them in just a few years. Funny, how only hearing what you want to believe has not changed over thousands of years. That’s some dangerous thinking there.

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Please pray for me that I will always remember to be fighting in prayer for my village, Candelaria. I ask that you would do the same! We need HOPE, freedom, peace, faith, love, and goodness to reign in a place that is heavily oppressed by poverty, abuse, alcoholism, discouragement, and depression.
I’m obviously happy to be here and don’t feel like I’m being held captive, but the main message I’m trying to live out is to bloom where you’re planted. In every situation, we can be praying for our surroundings and having a peaceful impact where we live.

Subscribe to Haille’s Nicaragua e-mail updates

Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.