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When children hurt themselves, often they go running to their parents, tears streaming down their faces as they cry for help and healing.
Other children get hurt, and they hide it. They know that the scrape they have on their knee, the twisted ankle that is starting to swell, they know that it’s going to hurt more to get better. They are the too wise for their years children, the ones that don’t have that shiny bright new innocence still planted in their hearts.
So they hide the hurt. They hide the dirt filled scrape that needs cleaning and the bones that need setting.
And it gets worse.
And their parents ask the child to show them what’s wrong, because a parent always knows.
But they hide, because they know it needs to feel worse to feel better.
The parents can work with the child and give them medicine for the pain, but they can’t get to the root of the problem if the child doesn’t offer that hurt part to them and allow them to heal it. The child will never fully heal if the messy, painful part isn’t taken care of.
We are children, you guys. We know perfectly well that God can heal and restore us and put us back together to be whole.
But we are too wise, and we know it will hurt first to get better, so we refuse to show him the worst parts of ourselves and offer them to be healed.
This is the sacrifice God desires. He doesn’t want perfect performance, He doesn’t want a fake version of ourselves that we put on to hide our deepest faults.
He desires that place in your heart that’s been stored away maybe all your life. He wants the thing that makes you cry and scream at night because you can’t control it.
He wants the most vulnerable parts of you that you can’t fix on your own and you never will.
Only when you give him your worst can he begin the process to heal you.
Only when you decide to let him have what you most want to hold on to can He redeem you wholly and completely.

Cuando los niños se lastiman, la mayoría van corriendo y llorando a sus padres, caras llenas de lagrimas, buscando ayuda.
Otros niños se lastiman y lo esconden. Ellos saben que el raspado en la rodilla, el tobillo doblado que empieza a inflamar, saben que esas cosas duelen primero para después sentir mejor. Son los niños que son demasiado viejos por sus años, los que ya no tienen esa nueva y brillante inocencia sembrada en su corazón.
Así que, esconden su dolor. Esconden la tierra incrustada en el raspado que ocupa limpieza, y los huesos que necesitan ser fijados.
Y las cosas se empeoran.
Y los padres piden que el niño enseñe su herida, porque los padres siempre saben qué hay algo mal.
Pero lo esconden, porque saben que primero tiene que doler más para sentir mejor.
Los padres pueden hacer algunas cosas con el niño, le puede dar un analgésico para el dolor, pero no pueden llegar a la raíz del problema si el niño no ofrece esa parte lastimada a ellos y dejarlos sanarla. El niño nunca va a sanar completamente si no deja que le sanen la parte dolorosa y terrible.
Amigos, nosotros somos niños. Perfectamente bien sabemos que Dios puede sanar y restaurar y arreglarnos para ser personas completas.
Pero somos demasiados sabios, y sabemos que primero va a doler para poder sentir mejor después, entonces rechazamos mostrarle las peores partes de nosotros y rechazamos la oportunidad de ser sanados.
Y este es el sacrificio Dios desea; Él no desea un desempeño perfecto, no desea una versión falsa de nosotros que ponemos para esconder nuestras fallas más profundas.
Él desea el lugar en tu corazón que ha sido guardado tal vez toda tu vida. Él quiere la cosa que te hace llorar y gritar en la noche porque no la puedes controlar.
Él quiere las partes más vulnerables de ti que tú no puedes arreglar solo y nunca podrás.
Solo cuando das lo peor de ti, Él puede empezar el proceso para sanarte.
Solo cuando decides dejarle tener lo que más quieres guardar para ti mismo Él puede redimirte completamente y enteramente.


Big Ministry Update for 2016

Friends, Family, Supporters,

I’m writing to you about some BIG changes that are happening with my ministry. Finding Hope is doing better than ever and flourishing as we are truly flying through construction. God has been so good and faithful to provide donations to continue work on the building. Unfortunately, and sadly for me, I have not gotten to be a part of the construction crew for the past few months. As I shared in August last year, I began studying to become a CNA in Honduras. It was supposed to be a 2 year program, but since I had one-on-one classes, it went much faster than expected, and I’m 2 ½ months into my year-long internship at a private hospital in La Ceiba. It’s been really difficult not being able to be in the ministry 24/7 and seeing so much happen without getting to be a part of it. It has been hard, but I know that the Lord put it on my heart to learn something that could be valuable towards helping those in need. In addition, I’ve really loved my internship and different practices so far. I’ve actually been liking it way more than I thought I would.

I’ve always loved helping people, and it’s been the true passion of my heart for my entire life. I think at this point, (and yes, I know I’m too young to say this) I thought I was done finding all the big passions, the things that make me feel like I’m living out my calling. But I was wrong. I never realized how beautiful it would feel to help heal someone’s body while making the real focus on the Great Healer who restores our hearts.

After spending months praying about this new desire to be able to do more, learn more, and help more in the medical field, I made a decision. In June of this year I will be leaving Finding Hope, finishing my Nursing internship, and in the Fall, I will begin studying Medicine at the private Catholic university in Honduras.

The goal is to be a missionary doctor in Honduras, specifically to the remote areas where healthcare is unavailable. My heart aches for my friends and Honduran family, and their humiliation and frustration with the only healthcare they can (barely) afford that, most of the time, doesn’t resolve any of the problems they have. My hope is to provide quality healthcare to those who can’t afford it, treating them with the love and respect they deserve, while also using that opportunity to share about the only One that can truly heal them.

So, details! It will be 8 years of school – 1 year in Ceiba, 6 years in San Pedro Sula, and 1 year in whatever location they give me for my residency. I will still need to keep up my costs of living, which is about $400 a month, plus an additional $250 a month for costs of school. It’s a big commitment! And to be honest, slightly frightening. But I am committed, 100%. This whole journey and experience that I’ve had in Honduras has shaped and grown me for this next big step, and I am fully trusting in the Lord’s faithfulness that He will guide me through to the end.

I am leaving Finding Hope with a sad, but thankful heart. The past two years have been some of the best of my life, getting the opportunity to work with this incredible ministry and be a part of something beautiful that is happening in the little town of El Porvenir. I will always be their biggest cheerleader and encourage you to support them and follow their ministry after I leave.

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Read about Katlyn McConnell, the Director of Finding Hope’s new ministry changes HERE
She’s about to become a Foster Mom and continue on with ministry, so she needs your prayers as well!