Big Ministry Update for 2016

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Friends, Family, Supporters,

I’m writing to you about some BIG changes that are happening with my ministry. Finding Hope is doing better than ever and flourishing as we are truly flying through construction. God has been so good and faithful to provide donations to continue work on the building. Unfortunately, and sadly for me, I have not gotten to be a part of the construction crew for the past few months. As I shared in August last year, I began studying to become a CNA in Honduras. It was supposed to be a 2 year program, but since I had one-on-one classes, it went much faster than expected, and I’m 2 ½ months into my year-long internship at a private hospital in La Ceiba. It’s been really difficult not being able to be in the ministry 24/7 and seeing so much happen without getting to be a part of it. It has been hard, but I know that the Lord put it on my heart to learn something that could be valuable towards helping those in need. In addition, I’ve really loved my internship and different practices so far. I’ve actually been liking it way more than I thought I would.

I’ve always loved helping people, and it’s been the true passion of my heart for my entire life. I think at this point, (and yes, I know I’m too young to say this) I thought I was done finding all the big passions, the things that make me feel like I’m living out my calling. But I was wrong. I never realized how beautiful it would feel to help heal someone’s body while making the real focus on the Great Healer who restores our hearts.

After spending months praying about this new desire to be able to do more, learn more, and help more in the medical field, I made a decision. In June of this year I will be leaving Finding Hope, finishing my Nursing internship, and in the Fall, I will begin studying Medicine at the private Catholic university in Honduras.

The goal is to be a missionary doctor in Honduras, specifically to the remote areas where healthcare is unavailable. My heart aches for my friends and Honduran family, and their humiliation and frustration with the only healthcare they can (barely) afford that, most of the time, doesn’t resolve any of the problems they have. My hope is to provide quality healthcare to those who can’t afford it, treating them with the love and respect they deserve, while also using that opportunity to share about the only One that can truly heal them.

So, details! It will be 8 years of school – 1 year in Ceiba, 6 years in San Pedro Sula, and 1 year in whatever location they give me for my residency. I will still need to keep up my costs of living, which is about $400 a month, plus an additional $250 a month for costs of school. It’s a big commitment! And to be honest, slightly frightening. But I am committed, 100%. This whole journey and experience that I’ve had in Honduras has shaped and grown me for this next big step, and I am fully trusting in the Lord’s faithfulness that He will guide me through to the end.

I am leaving Finding Hope with a sad, but thankful heart. The past two years have been some of the best of my life, getting the opportunity to work with this incredible ministry and be a part of something beautiful that is happening in the little town of El Porvenir. I will always be their biggest cheerleader and encourage you to support them and follow their ministry after I leave.

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She’s about to become a Foster Mom and continue on with ministry, so she needs your prayers as well!

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The Best Ministry Moment Yet

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Last night was one of the most rewarding ministry moments of my entire life.
This past weekend we took a group of over 30 people (mostly youth ages 14-27) to a retreat/conference with the new church we are helping to plant and minister in.
To be completely honest, the weekend started off slightly uncomfortable, with much of the ministry being something I’m not used to.
I think what changed it for me was seeing the youth we brought having encounters with the Lord that were ROCKING their world.
Youth that were either new Christians or not Christians at all.
Youth that were using drugs every day,
youth who worked with a gang,
youth who had been abused by their family,
youth who had so much hate and resentment in their hearts,
youth who are desperately searching for love in all the wrong places.
They came back changed in a way I have never seen before in my entire life, and I’ve been going to church since I was a baby.

Everyone says, and the truth is that it usually happens: That people, and especially youth, will come back from a retreat on a spiritual high, and it won’t last. They’ll just go back to the same habits and life they were living before.

I chose and am choosing every day to believe and pray that this will not happen with our new warriors.

Last night we had our first church service since coming back from the retreat.
Our usual attendance is never more than 20 people on a good night, and Mario’s family makes up the majority.
Last night we had over 50 people attend.
And they weren’t people that had just heard about our church…they were family, friends, acquaintances, and neighbors of all the youth that went on the retreat.
They brought their mothers who at one time had said they don’t love them, their siblings that they had denied for years, their children who had never seen the inside of a church building, and their neighbors that they had gossiped about and laughed at.

Their faces are changed. There’s an actual physical change in their appearances and the way they carry themselves.
They couldn’t stop smiling, the mouths were full of AMENs and GOD BLESS YOUs.
They had been watching the whole retreat how the leaders would be the first to lay hands on those who need prayers, the first ones to start singing and lifting their hands up to heaven, the first to help and support the pastor with whatever the Lord put on his heart.
As the message ended and we entered into a time of worship and prayer, and an invitation to be a part of this revolution, our warriors took on their new roles without anyone telling them what to do. They worshiped the Lord with all their hearts but kept an eye on the others, scurrying over to someone who was crying to lift their hands up and pray blessings over their soul.

I was humbled beyond words. Youth that I, before, would have never even dreamed about even inviting to church stood in front of the congregation and told their testimonies of how God changed their hearts. In front of everyone they asked their families to forgive them, they asked to be held accountable to not return to their past, and they declared their commitments to the Lord.
They cried as their siblings that they had invited stepped forward and accepted the challenge of living for Christ.

It was incredible.

Afterward, the pastor got the youth together and we went to three houses to pray for families that the Lord had put on the pastor’s heart. That was a whole OTHER experience.
These youth were not all friends before the retreat. Some of them were even enemies. They had some serious beef with each other.
But the last day of the retreat, and from then on, that hate and resentment was banished from our group.
Walking down the roads of Porvenir, everyone was holding hands, and telling each other I LOVE YOU and I CARE ABOUT YOU and WHAT’S WRONG and WE’LL PRAY ABOUT THAT!
After prayer, we had a meeting and the pastor explained what the next few weeks would look like.
We are so passionate that this fire will not be put out.
These warriors have their schedule, their jobs, and their responsibilities. I truly think structure and taking ownership will be the keys to not losing the “spiritual high”.

I NEED YOUR PRAYERS!

More than ever these guys need prayers. God took them out of some HEAVY stuff, and it could be so easy to return.
If you’ve been a Christian for any amount of time, you know that although many things become more easier after letting God take control of your life, the devil comes in SO strong to tempt and destroy and take back what he thinks is his.

Help me in proclaiming DELIVERANCE and REDEMPTION over these new lives and for the Holy Spirit to transform their minds and old ways of thinking.
Pray for their unity, and for the direction the group should go in.

Pray for our church building! The one we don’t have yet!
Right now we’re meeting at Mario’s house, and we don’t fit anymore. There aren’t enough chairs or space.
We’re looking at a couple of properties, but we also need the Lord to provide the funds.

You guys.
I am SO EXCITED.
I am SO HONORED to be part of something so extraordinary.

Thank you thank you thank you for helping me with your prayers and financial support to be able to live here and experience the Kingdom of God in new ways every single day!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

Where’s The Line?

I’m curious to get the opinion of other missionaries in foreign countries. Or really anyone, but I think that certain group of people will understand a little better this whole thought process.

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As we all know, moving to a different country and settling into a new lifestyle brings BIG changes. You’re adapting to a different culture, learning a new language, and meeting tons of people with their own attitudes and ideas.

The biggest change is learning how some things that work in the US (or wherever you’re from), things you’ve used your entire life…they may not be what’s best for the new culture you’re living in!
This is a very important lesson to learn, and crucial if you’re earnestly seeking to integrate yourself into your new environment.

When it comes to ministry, I really believe in partnering with local churches and missions – learning from them and using their influence in the area to introduce yourself into the community. I just think it’s so essential to glean wisdom from local pastors, leaders, and church members about how this particular culture views Christianity, missionaries, worship, evangelism….and where they stand as far as rules and boundaries.

Now, hang on with me as I go on a little tangent:

I am 100% on board and completely agree with the opinion that, once we make the decision to use our lives to glorify God, we give up certain aspects of our personal pleasure. Life isn’t about ME ME ME anymore. God wants joy to fill my soul and for me to take pleasure in the world He’s created for me, but He is also sure of the fact that He is the provider of that joy. I can pour out all day long, give everything I have, choose compassion over being right…I can do all these things through Christ who strengthens me. He is the secret to being content. There is a lot of selfishness that needs to be sacrificed if I want to experience true joy. I need to give up temporary happiness to settle into the contentedness of true joy that is found in God alone.

That all being said, there are certain things that bring me happiness that I don’t personally feel are wrong. For example, after moving to Central America, I found out that I LOVE, but I mean absolutely LOVE Latin dancing. It’s a great challenge, good exercise, and it’s SO. MUCH. FUN. Salsa, Merengue, Bachata, Cumbia, Lambada…I want to learn it all!

However, in the majority of churches and Christian communities here, dancing (unless it’s Praise/Worship dance) is a sin.

Katlyn and I have made a lot of compromises here in Porvenir in regards to our personal lives. Since we are starting a brand new Christian ministry, we want to make sure we get off on the right foot in this town. We want respect and credibility, and that comes with the people here seeing with their own eyes that we are being good examples and being who we say we are.
We know that when we chose this direction for our lives, that meant giving up a lot of our right to doing what we want, when we want, how we want.
In this particular culture, it means no drinking, no dancing, no secular music, and paying close attention to the way we dress, among a few other things.
Our image is one of the biggest tools we have to incite partnership, help, and support for our ministry.

I’m not going to lie, it is HARD sometimes, and we are by no means perfect. There are things we are used to being acceptable in the States that just are not and have never been here in Honduras.

However, the RULES and REGULATIONS in the churches here are sometimes waaayyy out there. Not to mention that, basically, if you commit any of these “sins”, you’re not actually a Christian, and many times you’re shunned in your church. Guidelines that the Lord put in place to help us experience the goodness of a pure and holy life have turned into heavy, heavy chains that weigh many people down. These chains scare off a good amount of people who really need a Savior that they can trust implicitly and who will love them unconditionally. They make good people feel like failures, and turn kind people into judgmental pharisees with hearts of stone.

This is a whole other issue that desperately needs prayer and change, but that’s another topic for another day.

What I am trying to get at is that there are positives and negatives to every church and every culture’s individual views on Christianity. So where do we as missionaries in a different culture draw the line between:

– respecting and learning from this new culture’s Christian community while also maintaining a good image so that we have credibility in our ministry.

AND,

– speaking our minds about our personal beliefs, trying to fight against the chains of legalism.
Compassionately sharing our hearts and what the Lord has taught us about His grace and mercy.
Doing things that may be against the “rules” but is something you don’t feel personally convicted by and isn’t a sin in the Bible, to try and promote freedom in the Lord.

Will it make a difference even if you have all the right scriptures and proof to prove your point?
Is it worth it to shut up about your personal beliefs if it means the churches respecting you more?
When is it wise to pick and choose battles?

I know there is a happy medium out there.
Like I said, Katlyn and I have been trying to be really cautious in our actions and words, and have chosen to give some things up in order to stop gossip and be respected.
Sometimes it drives me crazy when I want to explain stuff like….how music for me is a spiritual thing, whether it’s blatantly talking about the Lord or not.

I hope I’m somewhat clearly getting across this conflict I’ve been feeling in my heart lately.

I truly am content here, I love this life, but every big change takes getting used to, it doesn’t happen overnight, and I don’t think I will understand everything even after years of living here.
I’m just praying for wisdom for each day that comes.
What can I do in each moment so that my life is a good example of a great God?

I think there is only so much that one person can do about their image until they need to step back and say, “Okay God, you take it from here.”
Or maybe our hands should’ve been open the whole time.

All I know is that God has been preparing my heart for this my entire life, and He’s been preparing the hearts of the people we’ll come into contact with this ministry for their entire lives. He’s planned this all from the beginning of time, and He’ll see it all through to completion.
I can have complete and total faith that it’s in His hands, and He’ll guide every step as we go.
Please be praying for us that we’ll have open eyes and ears to the wisdom He wants to give us in all the decisions we make in our personal lives and in the creation of Finding Hope.

So, prayer would be lovely, but like I said, I would really love to hear y’all’s opinions on all of this! Sorry as always for my ramble-y thoughts and the jumbled way it all comes out.

Got any verses that talk about any of this? Anything the Lord’s putting on your heart to share?
Please comment or send me an e-mail at haillekrieg@gmail.com

Thanks for taking the time to read and spend a few minutes in the mind of an over-thinking, recovering people-pleaser who is Haille Krieg.

Much love!!

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

Falling into the Depths, into Infinity

The thing about love, or any other feeling really…

If you’ve never experienced it, you don’t understand it.

There are complexities that you can’t even begin to know to include in your expectations.

There are depths,
OH THE DEPTHS.

There are layers….so many layers.

The changes of the heart,
The countless emotions.

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My understanding of God started so simply, as all great loves do.

He was righteous, powerful, mighty, just, loving…

There were ways to include Him in my life, to let Him be a part of my human experience.

There was my everyday God, the knowledge of something greater above me, around me, inside me. Something looking out for my good and holding my life in His hands.
I was aware of His presence.

I also had a God who touched me at times, squeezed my heart a little tighter than I was used to. This brought tears sometimes, an emotional tearing down of self-built walls.
Spiritual highs…as they like to say at Bible camp.

There were the two experiences.
The two sides of God.
The two levels I could feel.

But there had to be more to be felt.

As I spent time intentionally inviting the Spirit to come and show me the Father’s heart, the undoing began.

I thought He was a finite God…I thought He could be contained in the walls of my understanding.

I never knew I could be loved in so many ways, forms, and fashions.
I never knew I could be so excited to see what new way the Lord was going to show me His heart.

The experiences that I have been opening myself up to lately have been absolutely rocking my world. Shaking the very earth beneath my feet.

I’m almost a little ashamed to say I’m just now realizing how much I don’t understand the infiniteness of God’s love.
How very simple.
How very quaint.

The deepness of ABBA is immense.
I feel like I could drown in it.
And I think that wouldn’t be a bad thing.

I’m working on taking down the barriers of my expectations of God, the things holding me back from letting Him be infinite, and letting Him in His timing show me each layer.

He is vast, and large, and impossible to contain.

My union with Him is the greatest, most marvelous treasure I’ve ever wanted and had as my own.

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The dream of my heart that I’ve been praying over these past few months is to become a person Pure of Heart.
I want to naturally want things of the Lord.
I want it to be easy to want to be a genuinely good person.

And I think,
the way that God is transforming me, little piece by little piece,
is by covering me in His bigness.
Overcoming me with His presence.
Opening my mind to the infinite.
Guiding me into a place of losing myself for all that He is.

Oh, the Wonder of it all.

Where is the Love?

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I have been pondering some things lately…stirrings of my heart that need responding to.

I think I’ve really been trying to figure out what my vision for missions in my personal life is these past couple years. I know what I believe and I know what I want to do, but what do I see my role being in bringing the Kingdom to earth?

As I’ve thought about this and started explaining my heart for Central America and this culture, things have started to come together.
Explaining my new adventures and where I’ll be headed as soon as the funding is all set has lead to me being able to verbally process what I really feel in my heart.
And let me preface this with saying that I have talked a lot about, and could continue to keep talking about the joys and beauty and wonderfulness of where I live, but today I want to explain a little bit of the struggles I see here as well.

Here in Central America, most people are religious. A lot had gone to church when they were little. Catholicism is very strong here. From what I’ve seen, the majority believe that there is some sort of God – that there’s someone up in the sky, ruling and watching.
But that’s where any sort of relationship with Him stops.

The legalism in the churches here is insane. Someone catches you slipping up and “sinning” (going against rules they’ve made), you’re done. You’re out of that church and you’ve lost your salvation.

If the church is supposed to represent Christ, and we’re supposed to be His hands and feet in this world, what example is that of His love and gentleness with us? How is that representing His unending grace and mercy for us?

So all that being the case here, especially in these small villages, there is a huge lack of encouragement, support, and unconditional love.
I cannot profess to know everything about God and tell you exactly what His nature is, but I know He is love. I know there is no end to the grace He has for those who want to follow Him and be His people. I know He doesn’t cast us away when we fall short of His perfection.
I know this because I’ve experienced it.

So why is there such a lack of understanding about this aspect of God? A really important aspect!

I have grown up in a church and family that have always loved and supported me unconditionally.
I know my parents would do absolutely anything for me, and that they want to bless me in so many ways even without me asking.
I have been able to understand a loving God because I have had tangible examples of that love in my life.
I have experienced just a small portion of it here on earth, but it helps in the way I view Him and think of Him.

So what if nobody in your life has ever loved you unconditionally?
What if even your family was not a safe place to go to?
What if everybody in your life was constantly judging you, waiting for you to slip up and then gossip about it, looking at your past and not believing in your future, measuring themselves up against you in morality?

How can you believe that there is someone who will never condemn you?

This, I feel, is one of the main struggles of Central America.

Now let me say too that not all families are like this here, and the amount of love I’ve received is incredible.
But even in those places where I’ve been loved, those people are not showing that same love to their own family members.
It makes me feel awkward, and I try to fix it.
However, that has lead to much disappointment as I realize I’m not here to “fix” anything, and honestly I really can’t.

How can you believe in an unconditionally loving God, when no one in your life has ever exemplified that?

For years, the Lord has been speaking to me about how I have the ability to show His love to people. That I carry that part of Him inside my heart.
I’m only just finding out how to really use that and for what specifically.

I believe my calling in missions work to Central America is to show an unconditional love to those who have none.
To encourage, support, and pour life into those who need it desperately.

I want to be a physical representation of Christ to women who are expected to do a million things a day for their families and then are not shown any gratefulness.
I pray my relationships with them will be a place where they can feel rested and encouraged and know I love them as they are.

I want to love and nurture children from the earliest age possible so that deeply ingrained in them would be a knowledge and faith of a God who cares about everything and everyone.
I pray that they would just know there is no other way of living other than living under the love of the Lord.

There is a need for that here, and I’m so deeply blessed to be able to be a part of the Jesus’ restoration of Central America.

My prayer as always is to be wholly and completely wherever I am, and then leave places and not leave any remembrance of Haille’s love behind.

Please, Abba, permeate my work and my life with who You are so that who I am is a representation of Your desire to be in relationship with each beautiful human being you’ve created.

Romans 10:14 (The Voice)
“How can people invoke His name when they do not believe? How can they believe in Him when they have not heard? How can they hear if there is no one proclaiming Him?”

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

A Little Bit of Community LOVE Shout-out

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I love how Nicaraguans love.

Some can say that their culture is too nosey, everyone knows everyone’s business, people talk too much, they want to know everything about you…

But for me it’s perfect.

They care.

I have never felt so loved as when someone asked me if I’ve eaten breakfast or lunch or dinner, and if I haven’t, they hurry me to a chair and grab me a plate of food, a Big Cola, and ask me if the 5 pounds of food they’ve put in front of me is enough.

If I mention I have a headache or stomachache or some weird skin problem, they call me “Pobrecita” and find medicine to fix me up.

When I need a place to sleep, I have an open invitation to several houses that will make sure I have a bed.

If I take time to look nice and do my hair, put on makeup, someone always notices and compliments me.

When I am having a difficult moment and just don’t want to talk about it, I know several people I can go to that will just sit with me and keep me company.

If I’m having a rough hair day, there’s always someone to comb my hair and make me presentable again. If it’s worse than just a bad ponytail…I have the best lice picker-outers that a girl could want.

There’s always someone worrying themselves for my well-being and making sure that I’m doing well.

They want to know every little detail of my family and friends and my life in the States.

Even if I try to hide how I’m feeling, at least one person can tell that something’s going on and will pray for me or encourage my heart.

They are genuinely interested in the lives of people close to them.

And that’s how village life is!

You know everything about everyone and a lot of times it’s more than you need to know.

But I would take that any day over a community of cold, self-focused, individualistic  people that keep to themselves.

I love living a life fully open to my community and sharing in the joys, hardships, trials, and victories of the journey we’re all on to bring a little bit of heaven to earth.