Pure and Simple

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I am feeling absolutely WRECKED in who I am as a person, as a Christian, as a friend, as a sister, as a daughter, as a missionary, as a gringa…any and all of the things I’m identified as.

Even though I have the love and freedom of Christ in me, why is it that I feel so insufficient?

Why do I fail so many times and always resort to berating myself for being a hypocrite/bad person/worthless Christian?

I just want to know if I am the only person who hasn’t figured out a life without shame and regret and doubts.

I am the only person whose mind is constantly consumed with their own failures?

Add that to me about to make a seemingly life-changing decision…and I’m a mess. Wrecked.

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But I really feel like God’s saying,

Don’t give up on me.

Don’t give up that I promised I will never leave or forsake you.

Don’t give up on me and my plans, don’t believe the lie that you know what’s best for your life.

Don’t give up hope that the things I’ve spoken over your life will come to fruition.

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I’m finding that I’m identifying myself by all the things the world calls me and says about those things.

But see, even that makes me feel like a failure as a Christian.

See how this is a whole vicious cycle for me?

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“Stay focused on what’s above, not earthly things, because your old life is dead and gone. Your new life is now hidden, enmeshed with the Anointed, who is in God.” – Colossians 3:2-3

So what’s above? Who and what does God say I am? How can I feel worthy to hold any of these titles of Christian or Missionary?

“But God, with the unfathomable richness of His love and mercy focused on us, united us with the Anointed One and infused our lifeless souls with life – even though we were buried under mountains of sin – and saved us by His grace. He raised us up with Him and seated us in the heavenly realms with our beloved Jesus the Anointed, the Liberating King. He did this for a reason: so that for all eternity we will stand as a living testimony to the incredible riches of His grace and kindness that He freely gives to us by uniting us with Jesus the Anointed. For it’s by God’s Grace that you have been saved. You receive it through faith. It was not our plan or our effort. It is God’s gift, pure and simple. You didn’t earn it, not one of us did, so don’t go around bragging that you must have done something amazing. For we are the product of His hand, heaven’s poetry etched on lives, created in the Anointed, Jesus, to accomplish the good works God arranged long ago.” – Ephesians 2:4-10

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THIS is my identity.

How many times does God have to tell me it’s not by my works that I am saved or made worthy?

I am a living testimony to HIS GRACE.

By living, and just following him on his wild adventure, I am fulfilling everything he ever created me to be.

Can I just try to explain how much weight that takes off my chest?

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I can’t feel like a failure when I read and contemplate these beautiful words.

It’s not a complicated thing, to feel like I’m fulfilling God’s purpose.

I just need to narrow my vision,

concentrate on the light from heaven,

soak in the peace that’s always being offered,

revel in the boundless love I’m constantly being embraced by.

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“It’s God’s gift, pure and simple.”

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The Ukelele Worship – Live Sessions is an unedited, raw, fresh new group of worship songs written and performed by Haille Krieg. All the songs have been written and recorded in Nicaragua, as that is where Haille is living as a missionary to a small village called Candelaria. The purpose is to share the creative praise and adoration of a simple loving soul unto a great and marvelous God.

I have a return date!!
December 17th I will be flying back to Detroit, MI to spend Christmas with my family and to see about support.

I will be home for at least a month, depending on how much of my support I will be able to raise.

While I am home, I would LOVE to come to your church, school, group, club, organization, etc. to share about what I am doing here in Nicaragua and how you all can partner with me and be a part of the beautiful work that God’s doing in our little village.

Please let me know as soon as possible so I can make out a schedule of what my time home is going to look like! I would be so grateful to have opportunities to share and get the word out about my organization and mission.

One last thing…if you are so lucky to have a spare car that I would be able to borrow for some time I’m in the States, I would be eternally grateful. The way things are looking right now, I will probably have to mooch a lot of rides. Which, you know, definitely produces a lot of humility, and that’s a good thing too. 

Subscribe to Haille’s Nicaragua e-mail updates

Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes

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November 2012 – November 2013, The year of Candelaria

To all my dear blog readers and lovely supporters, the time has come for me to celebrate my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY of living and working in Nicaragua. Specifically in a beautiful little village called Candelaria.

Here is a little summary of some of my most momentous and fantastic life happenings from this unforgettable year:

THIS YEAR I…

  • Hiked up a Volcano and boarded down
  • Got to have my dad come down and visit me.
  • Have seen 3 girls grow in worship ministry and come into a lot of vulnerability and openness to the holy spirit
  • Was proposed to
  • Taught worship leading
  • Saw two of my best friends fall in love
  • Became a godmother
  • Loved even when it wasn’t returned
  • Hoped for the hopeless
  • Prayed over a nation of men who will one day treat their women with the respect they deserve
  • Watch a girl say no to what her human nature and the world said yes to, and choose God’s way instead.
  • Ate the most gourmet thanksgiving dinner I’ve ever had
  • Learned a new language that I can speak fluently conversationally
  • Saw my preschool class get excited about Jesus and doing good
  • Learned the heavenliness of fried cheese, guirila, bunuelos pupusas, enchiladas, repollito, pithaya, and so much more
  • Have discovered that I do not like to cook many things.
  • Learned how to ride my bike through buses, taxis, bikers, people walking, motorcycles, triciclos, without running into anyone…well people anyway. I did run over a dog’s neck once.
  • Fit 11 people in a 5 seater taxi
  • Took an estimated over 100 bus rides
  • Watched a pig get killed
  • Got my first parasites, dengue fever, pneumonia, and weird rashes
  • Walked with a family through their healing journey of finding out their precious 4 year old had a cyst in his leg and the surgery to get it removed.
  • Discovered that motorcycles are my preferred mode of transportation
  • Made it through 10 seasons of Friends in 2 months because of a ridiculous emotional attachment to characters
  • Saw dearly loved staff move on to bigger and better things, even if it just means taking more time to be with their families, and seeing new and fantastic staff come in and be richly blessed by the Lord in their work.
  • Saw a drum line presentation of Gangnam style
  • Saw the trend of shirts for adults with elmo’s face on them come and go
  • Saw a courageous and tremendous woman of prayer fighting with the enemy for her health and WINNING over a parasite in her brain.
  • Have found out that wearing shorts under dresses and skirts is ALWAYS a good idea.
  • Saw the heavens open up and pour rain down like we were having another flood like Noah’s
  • Saw the joy and excitement on a child’s face finding out that they are sponsored to be able to go to school
  • Witnessed my first earthquake
  • Thoroughly enjoyed my first outdoor shower experience
  • Cut a field of grass with a machete
  • Stood on top of a erupting volcano
  • Crossed borders of countries TWO times, by myself. And took public transportation the entire way of all the trips.
  • Ate fish gonads.
  • Wrote 6 new songs.
  • Took a shower in the rain.
  • Ate Gallo Pinto more times than I can count.
  • Befriended an entire street of people
  • Slept in a hammock for about 5 months and counting.
  • Got my first shot in the butt.
  • Became best friends with the owner of a bakery (BEST IDEA EVER).
  • Experienced the overwhelming blessedness of supporters and their beautiful willing spirits.
  • Learned a new instrument by teach myself Ukelele.
  • And finally, saw and experienced more love than can be contained in a an infinite amount of words.

Family Ministry (A Little Bit of Heaven)

IMG-20131023-00027There’s a little thing I like to do during the week that I like to call Family Ministry.

My heart is a heart that seeks out love. I’m a feeler, and if my soul senses that love can be found in a certain area, I’m drawn to be there.

I’ve become attached to almost every single family here, but there are a few that stand out.

Their ridiculously extraordinary love they have for and show to me blesses my heart and fills my lonely ache.

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Every week I take a couple days and spend time with these families – loving, encouraging, and supporting them. I can’t even explain how much life has come from these times!
It makes me truly feel like part of the community.

From these precious times, I get to hear about their lives, testimonies, struggles, fights, and victories. I can find out their needs and communicate it to people who will most effectively be able to help them out.

They trust me, and I trust them.

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I’ve been able to see families grow in love and wholeness.

I’ve seen that moment when the light bulb turns on and a truth is recognized for what it is.

I’ve seen Jesus capture the heart of a man who found salvation through his earthly love, his wife.

I’ve seen a group of 3 families that share all they have with each other and their doors are constantly open to one another.

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My favorite thing to see is a family that is fighting to restore wholeness within themselves. The most beautiful part is when you see that selflessness is considered highest

The mother that feeds her children before herself, even if there’s just enough food for them…

The family that pools all their money together to buy the sick dad his medicine…

The child that gives his mama the sweet little ring he bought with his snack money…

The grandma who sits patiently with the child who is struggling with homework…

The aunt who walks a half hour at night to accompany her niece to go visit a sick friend…

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Something I value so much about this culture is how giving they are. My needs and wants have been considered first and foremost in these families way more many times than I have felt worthy for.

People here notice things, are observant, and will find a way to help out, even if it means searching out someone that can help you better.

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I have been sick for the past couple weeks with a cold that turned into bronchitis, that turned into pneumonia, and I’ve been treated like a PRINCESS by the huge number of people that want to see me feel better. I always had someone to go with me to the doctors, to get my medicine, to use their connections to make sure I got taken care of, to make me or buy me food, to lend me clothes, to make me sit and rest, to make me laugh, and to visit me.

My favorite day was when I went to Claudia’s house and I had 6 different women fussing over me, making me food, making sure I wasn’t too hot or too cold, spending time keeping me company…

I sat outside in a rocking chair all day long, just resting and nebulizing myself. To pass time, we got out makeup and did all the little girls up…they even did my makeup and hair!

Some turned out better than the others….

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It was a great day of laughing, healing, and being with those that I love. Every single one of them prayed for me and told me that they trusted that God would heal me quickly and completely.

Today I don’t have any wheezing, hardly any cough, and I can finally breathe OK.

I love having the support team of these precious women!

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I could go on and on with tons of stories from even just this time of being sick.

I am so blessed to be accepted into this community of strong, fierce lovers, and I make it my job to make sure they are taken care of as well by fighting in prayer for their struggles.

Will you join me?

Walter & Claudia’s family – for their church in Santa Matilde to be blessed and for them to continue to have a great impact on their community over there.

 

Blanca & Nubia’s family – for Blanca’s husband (Nubia’s dad) to be able to get medicine he needs and for healing from the kidney disease that is killing his body. That Nubia’s children would always have what they need to be taken care of.

 

Massiel’s family – that her family would be able to afford food and necessities. That her husband would use all of his paycheck toward the family.

 

Mercedes’ family – for provision in this time of no work. That her little girls would have full tummies and joyful spirits. That her little girls would be protected from the nasty men who hang out in the streets and call out to them and grab them. For one of her daughters in particular that is going to counseling, for her heart to be healed.

 

Ronniel & Jakeline’s family – for Ronniel to find work as he recently got let go from his job, for their kids to be able to pick up their grades and pass this year of school.

 

Ervin & Derma’s family – for their little 2 month old to be healthy and have a possible broken collarbone healed, for food and provisions for their family, for a possibility of them moving to have their own house.

And all the rest that I haven’t mentioned, for God to RICHLY bless their lives the way they’ve blessed mine.

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I have a return date!!
December 17th I will be flying back to Detroit, MI to spend Christmas with my family and to see about monthly supporters.

I originally committed to a year’s time in Nicaragua, and now that that time will be up on November 15th, I need to find out who wants to renew their support for me to be able to return indefinitely to Nicaragua.

I have been completely captivated by this country, its people, and our little community in Candelaria.

I truly believe this is where I’m supposed to be for an extended period in my life, and I plan to stay here until God opens up an opportunity to move somewhere else.

My main focus will be, as before, with the worship ministry here. I will be singing, playing piano, planning set lists, practicing with singers and musicians, learning and introducing new music, and encouraging the congregation through worship of our great God.

I will be home for at least a month, depending on how much of my support will continue to be given indefinitely.

While I am home, I would LOVE to come to your church, school, group, club, organization, etc. to share about what I am doing here in Nicaragua and how you all can partner with me and be a part of the beautiful work that God’s doing in our little village.

Please let me know as soon as possible so I can make out a schedule of what my time home is going to look like! I would be so grateful to have opportunities to share and get the word out about my organization and mission.

One last thing…if you are so lucky to have a spare car that I would be able to borrow for some time I’m in the States, I would be eternally grateful. The way things are looking right now, I will probably have to mooch a lot of rides. Which, you know, definitely produces a lot of humility, and that’s a good thing too. 

Subscribe to Haille’s Nicaragua e-mail updates

Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes