A Renewing of My Heart

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So let me tell you about this conference I went to in Matagalpa this past week. It was held by Bethel church of Reddington, CA, specifically their School of the Supernatural. Lisa, Cadence, and I went since it was mostly intended for the leaders of different organizations and churches in Nicaragua

The very first night of the conference, the lady who was in charge of the Bethel team, Julie Peters, preached on asking the Lord for things…you know, like not just assuming that He knows everything (which He does), but having that relationship with him that you are comfortable with asking for his gifts and believing you are worthy to receive them. So she asked us, “What are you craving from God? What is it that you want so much?”
I’ve been thinking and praying lately in some promises that God’s given me. Promises that I’ve been carrying for over a year now. And I knew that’s what I needed to start praying for, what I was CRAVING from God. I’ve had my time of waiting, and it’s been so good in growing patience in my heart and learning from God about waiting. After praying about it a lot, I feel in my heart like it’s time to start asking God to start completing those promises. I will still wait tirelessly and patiently, but it’s time to start asking.

So that started off the conference. Worship was amazing every time, some really gifted Nicaraguans led it. My heart was so full and open to all the teachings and spirit moments that we had. God worked through a lot of MESSY things that were going on my heart. Like, the fact that sometimes, I still feel replaceable, and it really hurts still. It’s a pain that’s very deep in my soul that God is wanting to bring a deeper healing to. I hadn’t realized that until a situation came up that I felt so very replaced. I’m working on finding where my worth really lies. Like really. I can say where I want it to lie but if I don’t believe it, I’m not living in the truth and it just gives me more feelings of frustration.

My earlier feelings and prayers about God’s promises for my life were incredibly confirmed later on in the week when a couple of people really spoke into my life about how they saw my spirit and where God had me in my life. What they both said was that ever since they had met me or seen me, they just saw rainbows. Rainbows and color and life. And what do rainbows signify? PROMISES. Right? They said that they see the holy spirit in me in a very distinct way, that I have the characteristics of the holy spirit. I just keep getting told that my voice is powerful.  And then things with kids. A Nicaraguan pastor came up to me after a session one day and said he had some words for me from God that he had to share. He said I have a prophetic calling on my life that is very evident. I will raise children (not necessarily my own) that will grow up to be great, influential people, like presidents. Later on in the week a member of the Bethel team prayed for me and told me that all he could see were little children just clinging to me, holding on and needing to be with me. None of these people knew me all that well and definitely didn’t know my story, my hopes, dreams, and plans. I had so much encouragement about worship as well, and a lot of people who just really believed in my dreams and purpose for being here and influencing the worship program.

It was all just so much wonderfulness…and you know, I absolutely prayed about all of it and didn’t just take it at anyone’s word. I firmly believe in not just assuming that someone’s word is true, because we’re all humans and make mistakes, but all their words were things that confirmed what I had already heard from God or things I’ve been hearing numerous times.

God put this new joy in my heart from my time at the conference. He showed me so much of his goodness and gloriousness and all about how he is SOVEREIGN. Also, that I put all my trust in him alone and look to him for help and solace.

After my time at the conference, I feel very refreshed and rejuvenated in my relationship with the Lord. Renewed in the purpose he placed in my heart and excited to begin anew in his plans.

I walked away with a freer spirit, a deeper relationship with God, healing from past hurts, and hope for my future.

God is Good!

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2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

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All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.

June 2013 Update

IMG_2692Welcome to the beautiful month of June in Nicaragua!
We are now full on into rainy season! So let the mud baths and drenching bicycle rides begin.

This picture above perfectly describes this month for me. OK, I know that was a long shot, but just bear with me…I’ll explain.
I am in a place of waiting right now – waiting expectantly.
Here, Esmerelda, Delila, Julissa, and I are waiting for Maykeling to get some tasty Guayaba out of the tree for us.
In my life, I can see the fruit that God has for me, I see Him preparing it and getting ready to release it, but I’m waiting for the perfect time. Actually, God’s waiting for the perfect time to give it to me and I am resting in His promise that He will be faithful.

If you know me at all, you know I am not the best at having patience. I don’t like surprises if someone tells me beforehand, and I really just enjoy things happening in the moment, spontaneously. It’s hard for me to hear things and then be told to wait.
I admit it, I’m a child.

And in my childish ways I fail to see the ways that God is trying to work in these times of waiting. I miss that He’s just trying to sit and talk with me, comfort me, encourage me, wrap me in His arms of love.
So I have given up with trying to have my way, trying to cajole and plead for Him to just give it to me – NOW!
I have spent the last month praying for God to fill me up in this time.
I have been filled with His presence and soaked up His goodness.

Now I am asking God to satisfy this craving of mine for these things to start happening.
I am asking for Him to start fulfilling these promises.
I will wait.
I will wait as long as it takes, but I am praying prayers of readiness. Equip me O God, I am ready to get into the battle.

So that’s what’s been going on in my life personally since I’ve been back.
The other things are mainly getting transitioned back to living here. Us missionaries moved to a little house right outside the village of Candelaria, we now live in Las Palmeras.
It is wonderful, I have my own room, it’s painted bright yellow, and I have WINDOWS. It’s hard not being so close to people at night, I used to really love being able to go and sit at someone’s house until about 10 or 11pm, just having great conversation…but this is how things are now, and I am content. I am convinced God has the best for me. Pray for us as we figure out the dynamics of transportation, additional expenses, relationships, and finishing the last building projects at the house.

IMG_2655RAINY SEASON!

IMG_2687Our Panaderia is in full force! They are making loads of bread everyday and selling every last bit. I can’t wait to see them turn a profit and expand! It is a blessing to see God working in the new businesses we’re starting. There are only more good things to come!

IMG_2756Here we are at our Mother’s Day service at church! This holiday is extremely important and celebrated here. These mothers are amazing and work so hard for their family! The youth planned a whole night to celebrate them. It included worship, a teaching, games, gifts, dancing, and more. This game was for moms who had daughters in the youth group to try and guess which girl was their daughter with a blindfold on, only touching their face. It was hilarious! We know that parenting is hard in the village life, there are situations that are unavoidable, but we are so proud of the moms in our community that choose to be different. The moms who choose to love their children unconditionally and pray for them in all situations. They are important leaders in the village of Candelaria!

IMG_2767On our way to a special service in Santa Matilde. This is a typical truck ride, filled to the brim with people. Carolyn who is pictured with me is one of our summer interns! She is so sweet and hilarious, with a real heart for children and loving people.

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IMG_2794This was one of my favorite days this week! Darling Rosa heard that I love piglets, so invited me to her house to hold them and love them and take pictures. So we did that, and then I found out she also had baby puppies and baby ducklings as well! After I got done snuggling the loveys, Rosa informed me that her daughter’s pig was pregnant, and I HAD to go see it because it’s humongous.
It was enormous. Pregnant with at least 10 piglets.
And then we went for a tour of all the houses that she knew that had pigs.
She gets me! She is the only one who understand my love for pigs!
It’s great.

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Thank you for your continued support of the journey God’s put me on! If you would like to see pictures, feel free to add me on FaceBook. They upload faster on there. If you feel led to make a donation, there are a few ways you can go about that:

1. Write a check and send to Life Church. Make check out to Life Church, put Haille Krieg in the memo line, and send to 7001 Haggerty Rd, Canton MI 48187

2. Send money electronically through Life Church’s PayPal account. You can find that here: http://www.lifechurchcanton.org/#/about-life/financial-contributions. Make sure you specify that it’s for Haille Krieg.

3. Set up an Elexio account to have an amount taken out of your bank account each month. Log into Elexio Pulse https://lifechurch.elexiopulse.com and click on the “My Giving” link to the far right, you’ll see not only your history in giving, you’ll see a large link in the upper left that says “click here to Give Online”.  If you don’t have an Elexio account you will go to the above link and click on “need an account?” and follow the prompts.

All donations are tax deductible, which is one of the reasons for me going through my church. Life Church does send out donation statements for your tax purposes.